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2012-01-31T05:13:00.002+08:00

'A leopard never changes its spots'.

My instincts were right once again and I'm so glad I trusted them. Now I can be a much happier person and will be able to experiment different things and feelings in life I once thought I never would anymore, how silly I was then.

I don't care what you might say, might think, might do or how you want to react. I feel its at best that we just leave things the way they are now.

Though honestly apart from all the bad times we had, I must say the good times are all worth keeping a memory of. And I have never regretted that our paths once crossed. I saw a part of you that no one else did and I believed in you. But through the many disappointments, I'm really sorry boy, I ran out of chance cards.

So, I'll be leaving you...

....for good.

But I still hope that you'll live life the fullest,

find a good girl,

treasure her with all your heart.

No more lies.

And lastly..

Thank you for all that you've ever done for me.

2011-11-23T03:22:00.000+08:00

Discipline and Distractions. 2 words that starts with D that I Detest most.

I need more of the first D and lesser of the second.

I NEED HELP ! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

2011-10-11T13:07:00.005+08:00

To you :

When the rain is blowing in your face,

and the whole world is on your case.

I could offer you a warm embrace,

To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,

and there is no one there to dry your tears.

I could hold you for a million years,

To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,

but I would never do you wrong.

I've known it from the moment that we met,

no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue.

I'd go crawling down the avenue.

No there's nothing that I wouldn't do,

To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling seas,

and on the highway to regret.

The winds of change are throwing wild and free,

you ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy,

make your dreams come true.

Nothing that I wouldn't do,
go to the ends of the Earth for you,

To make you feel my love,
To make you feel my love.

2011-10-05T08:41:00.000+08:00

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you

Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/kiss/because_im_a_girl.html ]
Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought you only loved me

Into the night, I pray that you'll be alright
You hurt me so I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

2011-10-03T08:14:00.010+08:00

oh no ! my sleeping patterns are all screwed up again :( I'm practically living an american body clock life, haha !

The past 3 days were awesome ! Friday was molly's 16th anniversary, and the theme was 'back to school'. The girls wore Japanese school skirts and a white shirt with a skinny black tie, high knee socks and black shoes while the boys had berms/pants, shirt and a black bow tie on. Everyone looked really cute in the uniform ! The managers Eveyln and Yanni dressed up too, Mummy Eve went for the cuter look with a sailor dress while Mummy Yanni wore white high knee boots, a corset and mini red skirt. HOT HOT HOT !
We took a whole lot of pictures which can be viewed on my fb ! I just love doing themed events like these, just makes work so much fun ! Next up would be Halloween, hehe I sorta have what I wanna be in mind alrd.
oh ! And a BIG FAT THANK YOU to Edwin for giving me a lift to and fro Mustafa and helping me find the tats despite being so tired after work on thursday :)

LHC & SUSU :)

Fariz & Stewart. Totally Adorable !!!

Mr.Bean & I :)

Ka-Ann our make up artist for the night !

Band: NO-Daddies Rockin' the house !

These 3 guys, Sofhian, Bhai & Sulaiman never fail to make me laugh :)

Mummies Evelyn & Yanni looking HOT !!

Sister Sue suddenly appeared in this outfit. SO COOL !!!!

Part of the team Mollys. LOVE YOU ALL ! <3

AH HAI HUA !

Can you even tell thats me ? :P

Afterwork, Hua, lhc and I went down to Bryan's 21st chalet at Changi. The chalet is HUGE !! If anyone is looking for a place to host a party for 100 + pax, try Aloha Changi Ferry Point 7. By the time we reached, almost all were drunk so I just stayed up chatting with the girls :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN !! you look like ~~mickey mouse~~ really !

That same night, I met up with the girls, lucius and jia heng for dinner at hougang 3 for $15 crabs ! good deal.
Went to marina barrage after, as soon as we reached, they locked both lhc and I in the car. They had smt up their sleeve, sneaky people. Both lhc and I did not even suspect anything at all ! hahaha
They blind folded us and both of us were led by a string to some where, it is actually pretty scary not knowing where I was walking. haha I was like on a leash by on the hand, so doggy. and thank god yuyu wasnt leading me, she led lhc and made her walk into the walls. MEAN GIRL !! hahaha
so finally we reached some shallow pool which they made us stand there with our legs tied up and they splashed water on us. haha the purpose was to make us (lhc) wet so that we can see her in a maxi dress ! haha she's not so much of a dress person let alone a maxi dress.
but plan half failed bec she had on a blazer and leather shorts so she wasnt entirely wet, she still had to change though if not we would catch her and make her really wet.
and they surprised us with a cake when we removed our blind folds.
awww love them all so much ! so much effort they put in, i'm really v touched :) thanks guys <3

They stuck 2 huge leaves on me and said I look like a donkey -.-

Haha poor us !

YUYU THE MEAN GIRL !! HAHAHA

LHC IN A MAXI DRESS EHHH !!!! WEE WEET ~~

SEE SEE !!!! YUYU YOU BETTER WATCH OUT ON YOUR BD !!

Thats about all, I havent blogged about my daily doings in such a long time. Shall do so more often !
Stay tune if you're kay poh enough to know more about my life :)
Till then !

2011-09-23T06:33:00.001+08:00

I'm sitting here alone in the dining hall at 6 in the morning trying to finish up my tutorial for the later class. I'm barely half way there ! I guess no one can really help me when my mind is my biggest distraction, cant help it when my mind suddenly starts to wander off and think about all the unrelated issues. So, I hope a little blogging can take my mind off some stuff for a little while before I continue scribbling answers on my paper.

Recently one of my favorite regular confided in chin and I why he was feeling so sad and depressed lately, why he was drinking alone sometimes late in the night. A breakup may not sound like a big issue to some people, but when you're that sentimental and when you put your best effort in to the r/s and someone just crush it effortlessly, you'll understand then, how much it hurts. I suppose most people will go through this stage in life and I guess the best advice one can give is that time will heal your sorrows. Eventually you'll start to wonder that she/he may not be the one and that I'm certain you will meet the right person =) It was really unprofessional and mean the way she treated you so don't put any blame on yourself alright ? There's so many women out there dying to meet a guy like you, so don't give up k ! Try not to think so much when you're alone too ? and whenever you want to talk to someone don't forget chin and I ! =) We lend a good listening ear. And if balloons cheer you up, we'll make one each time you come to molly's ^^

The one and only thing a friend will always wish for another is for him/her to be happy. And as long as you are, a good friend will always be behind your back supporting you though thick and thin. I'm really glad to know that I have friends that will do that for me, and in return I want to be regarded as that friend as well because I know that I will always be there for them =)

The sun is rising, time for me to head back to my books.
Have a good day y'll =)

2011-09-05T04:53:00.004+08:00

Life these weeks have been pretty miserable. Worst, I don't know the reason why I'm feeling so down and depressed lately. Perhaps its school or maybe work is tiring me out. If that was the case, I'm no different than a beansprout. I used to be a strong girl and issues like this used to be so trivial I can't even be bothered.

Its 2 weeks into school and I'm not enjoying it a single bit. I've got no friends in class, which makes me a lonely dolly. So I pay attention to the lecture which can really bore me out ! I find it so hard to make new friends in lectures like this because you go to class, you find a seat and you pay attention, when the class ends, you leave. That's what I'm experiencing so far, and its driving me nuts ! And sometimes I just don't know what to say to strike a convo, sigh I used to be so outgoing and chatt ! Where's the old me ?! :(

Well, friends in school are important. But what is most important is me liking the course, and sad to say, I'm not. Well, the only reason I took this course was because I needed this field of knowledge for a particular reason which I really hope it will come in handy. *fingers crossed. I'm only interested in it about 25% so I am not happy at all, lectures are fast and hard to understand. Besides, its not exactly what I'm good at. I'm really so lost and depressed. If only I had the money, I would quit and really pursue something I really like and can excel in. I'm so disappointed in myself saying this, but I kind of regret.

This is gonna be a tough 3 years of my life but I've gotta be more mature now. Suck thumb ! push myself harder and hopefully everything will turn out well. I've gotta force myself to get use to it. And...

I really wish you were here to support me through all this, be my strength of pillar. Its so difficult without you now and I feel like I'm falling into pieces.

2011-06-29T15:50:00.001+08:00

After all that happened, I cross my fingers and hope that I will not end up with someone who will hurt me like the way you did.

But you know what? A little twist here. I in fact do hope that I'll meet a guy who would
steal, lie and cheat.

However.....

a guy who would steal away my sorrows,
a guy who would lie beside me on bed every night
& a guy who will cheat death.

:)

2011-06-22T03:44:00.001+08:00

Am I that bad?

I hate it when people compare me with others, can't they just see I'm not them? Don't expect me to be like them.

Are you saying all this to make me improve? I try to tell myself that too, but its hard to keep a straight and positive mind when the things you say sometimes really makes me wonder.

I'm pushing myself to do better, to improve, to prove to myself and others that I can. But the things you say are just so hurtful, it makes me fall back down a step.

Sometimes, you have to understand the situation before you make a judgement.

Think about all the times where you ask me to do something, anything at all. When did I disagree or agreed on a second thought?

Everyone makes mistakes but I don't give excuses or try to explain myself when its a misunderstanding because I know it will only make things even uglier.

Even when my knees and ankles are hurting like hell, I still hang in there. I try not to let it get to me.

Can't you see that i'm trying ? Can't you ?

Just leave me alone and let me do my thing please.

Or you could tell me straight in my face where I went wrong and not beat around the bush in front of others.

2011-06-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

Stomach ache.

Head ache.

Muscle ache.

Worst >>>>>>>>>>

Heart ache.

Combo all at once :(

2011-06-10T04:39:00.000+08:00

Like hanzel you left trails of memories on your way out of my heart and where ever I go I'm reminded of you.

F OFF !

no, no, I'm just kidding.

Come back.

2011-06-06T01:53:00.001+08:00

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Could't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but you’re sorries
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Thanks for the song, but its not helping.
It brings more pain, pain that you dont know.

2011-05-23T02:46:00.002+08:00

I'm amazed I can still remember my password.

I'm feeling so down right now that I can gorge myself with 20 or rather more spicy nuggets. sigh, I thought I was over this.

Why are people are so silly when they're in love. Theres 2 kinds of being silly. One, being silly and support the one you love, be by their side when they needed you. Do lil sweet things because you know it would make them happy, putting in extra effort because you know they're important to you. Two, being silly in a way that would hurt the ones you love. Doing things that you know would make them sad but went ahead with it anw, and being silly to let them slip away day by day.

I was glad I was the silly number one, I have no regrets :)

So since being a free soul was what you wanted, be glad you are one now.

Goodbye.

2011-03-15T01:26:00.003+08:00

Gosh I nearly forgot that I actually have a blog. :/

So finally poly days are over, *hopefully*, fingers crossed. results coming out next tuesday.

I'm not really bothered about my final GPA cause I've made up my mind to further studies in UOL taking accounts and finance. So as long as I pass all modules, I will enroll and start this August.

Meanwhile, I'll continue working at Molly's to earn some extra bucks and save to buy my macbook for the new term :) and if I have some extra savings, I will go on short trips with the mates and sisters !

SO actually this short post is just to revive my dead blog a little.

Will try to post more often.

BYE.

2010-11-09T14:30:00.007+08:00

Previously, I mentioned I skipped 6 lessons despite promising I'll work hard. Well, nothing changed except I've skipped 15 lessons so far. god, I'm so tired of school. Lecturers are so boring except for 1 or 2. Even the simplest module that was supposed to be a give away and some time to relax is so far the most stressful module, CSW.
I just dread going to her class and I'm gonna make sure I make full use of my 'can absent for at least 3 classes'. hahaha

I'm just looking forward to my japan trip this holidays. Some time to relax and quality time with my family :) A little phobia though. But I hope nothing will change this 2 weeks while I'm gone.

Also, pray that my dearest uncle will recover soon. He just underwent a bypass heart op :(

Thats all for now. Love bf.
Taken in class. Iphone's flash was too strong but who cares, it covered all my blemishes. Just had to post, TOO CUTEEE ! hahahaha Smack me.

2010-10-27T13:21:00.002+08:00

such an irony. I said I'm not gonna be lazy and start working hard. But its only 2 weeks into the new semester and I've skipped 6 lessons. hoho bad bad.

Anw, life recently wasnt that good for me. Its hetic. With school, work and my driving lessons. Bf is equally busy too, so we have no time for each other :( I'm so sad. we havent seen each other in 5 days. I miss my boy boy :(

This coming fri is my TP ! oh my god I'm so nervous and excited. And that together makes me wanna diarrhea. I have little confidence because I'm a kan-chiong spider sometimes. And I have little practice in the circuit. I pray there will be little cars on the road.. I really hope a miracle happens and that I pass so I can save money and time.

BF: I just need to be in your arms for just 5 mins. Thats all I need to regain my energy. I love you babee.

2010-10-11T14:11:00.007+08:00

What do I really want in life? I always ask myself this question over and over again. By a certain age, say 35, what do I wanna achieve? Its the final sem and after that what am I gonna do after? I dont want to waste any time doing odd jobs just to pass time. I will only be stuck there and not learn anything.

People around me, they have goals and visions. They are clear of their future, the path they are taking, the steps they are following. What about me? This is the time I start realizing that I'm growing, and in no time I'll be forced to face the real world. Well the truth hurts but come on, take it as a motivation sulin, prove to people that you are what you're made of, show that you have what it takes to realize your own dream, there are no short cuts so work hard and i'm sure it will pay off.

From this very day onwards, I'll slowly move towards my goal I've set. Together with whoever and whatever support I have, I'll climb my way up. I want to live my life I want it to be and not how everyone thinks it should be because ITS MY LIFE and I shall carve my own path. ALL THE WAY SUSU ! :)

Also, this shall be a reminder to myself to stay strong and always have a positive mindset. Be prepared to encounter set backs in life, and never dwell on them. Always move forward and leave whats suppose to be behind, behind. Make your own decisions and blame no one for them. Lastly, be FIRM and STRONG.

Baby, if you're reading this, I want you to know that I'll genuinely support you all the way. We both know that its not going to be easy but if this is what we really want then we have to work hard. We'll encounter problems along the the way no doubt, but as long as we stand by each other in every aspect possible, I'm sure we will get there ! Let us both be more understanding, not only towards each other but to the people around us, our friends and love ones. Let us trust each other more as well and never take anything for granted because somethings in life, when it gone, its gone and you can never get it back. I love you with all my heart and I'm ready to stand by you by all means :)

True heart felt feelings will always sound cheesy. So if you're having goosebumps, you too should start doing something for yourself now ! CHEERS EVERYONE :)

2010-09-26T13:04:00.004+08:00

I woke up on the wrong side of bed this morning. I jumped out of bed when I realized my brother took my ipod, I hurried out and true enough, my baby white coolest ipod video 30G was nowhere to be seen. My blood started to boil inside. WHY THE FUCK DOES HE NEED THE IPOD WHEN HE IS GOING TO WORK. WHY THE HELL DOES HE NEED THE IPOD WHEN THE JOURNEY TO HIS WORKPLACE IS SO FKING NEAR?! I wouldnt mind him taking it if he had the basic courtesy to ask me before hand and I would agree if I dint have to use it later on. BUT I WAS GOING TO WOODLANDS. TO AND FRO. its a bloody hour journey there and I needed the poddy.
I'M SO ANGRY NOW. I'M SCREAMING INSIDE.

Then my mom just had to nag at me and knowing that I was already very pissed off. I blew. I screamed at her. So so so mad. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. I need some loud music to cool me down, I'm a gothic bitch inside.

Its all my brother's fault. that irritating fucking piece of selfish low crap.

my eldest brother.

2010-08-14T01:11:00.004+08:00

time certainly do fly, its almost the end of the first week of holidays. Nothing achieved except for finishing our fyp report. CHEERS! And I can forsee myself enjoying the whole of next week too cause next thursday is my birthday and i'm turning 19. So fast. Currently no plans for my birthday yet, just want to keep it simple, lunch/dinner or whatever. Actually I'm just kidding, I love surprises pls surprise me anybody. Even if its just a slice of cake I'll promise to act surprise, really. hahaha

Anw life is so-so now. Not rock bottom nor in high spirits, just normal passing each day like I have to, not happy time still passes, happy time still passes but of course I wanna be happy all the time. And I'm really jealous of ppl who are really happy and who are contented with what they have, not saying they have no problems in life of which I wouldnt know anyway but at least I know they have things that I want that would make me a happy girl.

Sometimes, I'm not sad, I'm more of scared? and the most irritating thing is not knowing what I'm actually afraid of? Sometimes I know and it just bugs me cause i'm just thinking too much and i'm just scaring myself but I cant help it. I'm starting to lose confidence in myself but I'm dont want to be a paranoid shit ass. I really have to overcome this fear I have inside and be the bubbly old me not someone acting strong on the surface but crumbling down like a sandcastle inside. I'm pathetic.

2010-08-11T12:00:00.001+08:00

so much for promising a fun week when i'm not even top 3 in your piriority list.

2010-08-09T23:21:00.002+08:00

no one I can think of that I can turn to.
because no one understands me,
not even you you you and you.

so now, I shall dig real deep to search for my soul,
the soul you people stole.

2010-08-01T03:11:00.001+08:00

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I should know

And you always think
I will speak
Critically

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You don't really want to stay, no
But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call a doctor
Gotta case of love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
I can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

2010-07-28T00:44:00.000+08:00

Cause everything I do, I do it for you.
cheeeesssyyy yea, but hey, gotta admit its true.

Love ya my boy !

2010-07-18T12:12:00.005+08:00

For how long will this last? I really have no idea.
I tell it to go, but it just won't.
Then I realized, it's loneliness.
And loneliness knows me by name.

Loneliness brings fear.
And what exactly am I afraid of ?
The truth.
Because truth hurts.
But face it girl, it's reality.

But why can't I control the reality?
Why can't I mould reality?
And if I could, I would make you reality.
Our world, only you and me.
Then I won't have to fear.
And even if every other thing messes up, I know I still have you.
Cause you make me feel safe whenever I'm with you.

I just love you so much but I'll never be in your arms again,
That's the truth,
and it hurts so much.

2010-07-13T23:29:00.007+08:00

Teach me how to cry,
when all my tears are dry.

Tell me what to do,
when I just closed my doors on you.

Remind me that I'm strong,
when everything goes wrong.

But now, you can hurt me no more,

So just be blunt,
I'm already numb.

2010-07-07T20:47:00.002+08:00

I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I never realized
How happy you made me
Oh baby

When you came and you gave without talking
But I sent you away, oh baby
When you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh baby

I'm standing on the edge of time
I walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world
Of uphill climbing
Tears are on my mind
Nothing is rhyming
Oh baby

When you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh baby
When you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today
Oh baby

Yesterdays a dream
I faced the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling
Oh baby

When you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh baby
When you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today
Oh baby

Oh baby wont you listen to what I've got to say
Oh baby don't you let me throw it away
Oh baby wont you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today
Oh baby

2010-07-01T00:40:00.004+08:00

How much can an incident/something change the person you really are deep within? You can put on a fake front, deceive the people around you, the ppl who truly care for you, but can you deceive yourself?

The brain is a powerful mechanism, I was stupid to let it control me to think that it was revenge that I wanted though I knew it wasn't somewhere back in my head.

Now see how evil can your own mind be, sneering at your heart now that it achieved its goal.

I've deceived you, and I've certainly deceived myself.

Its all over now, I'm back to who I was before.
I'm back to being the girl with a contagious laugh, a great vibe, a cute personality and a smile worth dying for. At least in someone's eyes, I will be.

2010-06-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

I know you're not coming back.

So I think you should start packing and move your way out of my heart...

And what is left would be you in my brain,the wonderful memories that you've given me but would soon fade away in tears.

I love you deeply and will for a long time at least.

2010-06-22T01:12:00.003+08:00

Its so hard to blog about my feelings when it runs like a contour, so confusing.

And....

How do I make everyone happy? including myself.
Seems really difficult...

I'm always sighing..

and here I go again, SIGH.

2010-06-04T15:33:00.003+08:00

problems surfacing one after another.
2 completely different people getting togther, was it a mistake or is it just filling up the empty parts of each other?

While I made you a better person, you repaid me by breaking my heart.
Now I'm a complete bitch so vulnerable, always cranky and always making the smallest and simplest thing sound like it's the end of the world. I want to blame you, but what's the good of it? I would only hate you, so as time goes by, I shifted the blame on myself for being so weak, for allowing you to hold my heart up so high then smashing it down to bits.

I tried, I tried to hard, now I'm tired. other thoughts are racing through my mind, but what is the best for me?
I really don't know, I wished I knew.

If it's the wrong choice, would you still be there for me?

it's gonna be a hard healing process, but if this is what would make us both feel better, let's not bluff ourselves anymore shall we?

I've loved only you all this while, probably more than you did to me. But it doesn't matter anymore anyway.

I'll miss your hugs, your soft kisses, your undersanding and everything great about you, let's just leave things here, you've made a difference in my life, you made me knew I could love someone this much, for that I thank you.

Thank you for everything great that because of you, it happened.

And for everything sad, let's just ...
... let bygones be bygones.

2010-06-04T01:39:00.003+08:00

SCREW TERM TEST. It makes me so stressed up, my weak heart can't take it.

SCREW EVERYTHING/EVERYONE WHO ARE GIVING ME PROBLEMS AND MAKING MY LIFE SO DIFFICULT.

SCREW HAVING TO WAKE UP EARLY. I need more sleep! insufficient sleep makes me cranky.

I can't wait till next week is over then I'll have plenty of rest and quality time with fat face :) i love you.

Gotta hit the sack.

psst : Happy birthday NAD ! Stay small and happy always cause you look cutest like this:) Wish you everlasting happiness with Azman too ! ROCKON. As your birthday present, I'm giving you some of my courage cause you need it ! Time to let out the lion in you, don't allow ppl to climb over you k. <3

2010-05-28T00:05:00.003+08:00

A Tribute to my Ah Ma.

My ah ma is a strong woman, very strong, stubborn and super independent. Her husband passed away young when my mom was still young and since then she brought up 8 kids single handed. She was protective of her children, she was fierce but reasonable. Stories from my uncles were that she would often chase them around to beat them cause they were super naughty and my ah ma would never let them go hungry even when times were bad. She earned some money from making and selling some food and even saved up to go on holidays. Some of the fond memories were travelling with ah ma, I would always be unhappy cause she would forced me to sleep in the same hotel room with her when I wanted to be with my other cousins but I would do anything just to slp next to my ah ma again. Times when she scolded me, times when she brought my cousins and I for a free movie at queenstown, times when I stayed over and she still forced me to slp with her, times where she would always push money to me, and when I reject I would get scolded. There are so many big and small incidents that are memories that stay with me forever and which I cherish. My ah ma was a great woman, she's 87 with 8 children, 19 grand children and 8 and a half great grand children.

Anw, my grandma whom I call ah ma (mom's mom) passed away peacefully on the 24th of April 2010. I miss her sooo much :( Each time I go to my uncle's house now, every corner of the house just reminds me of her. But at least I know she's not suffering anymore now. Well, my ah ma fell down unfortunately in Nov 2008 which she had a hip replacement done so her movements were rather restricted for months and not being able to go out whenever she wants to made her think that she wont be able to walk or do anything on her own again. And then it led to depression and minor strokes and getting into fits. Soon her fits were more often every few mths, in and out of hospital. Being the stubborn lady she was, it was really difficult for every one to get her to take her medicine, she just wanted to leave the world cause she thinks she's being a burden. It was really heart breaking, but what could I do? Then she was admitted again cause she had really bad fits which took quite long to subdue, then a minor heart attack and lung infection. The doctors told us to make a choice whether to sent her to icu, which we decided not to cause we knew that was her last wish, no wait. it wasnt even her wish. We just let her be, giving her medication to make her feel better. I stayed overnight at the hospital with mummy, praying for her and just being by her side. A few days later, I had to leave sg for my overseas attachment for 3 weeks and the doctors told us to prepare cause it may be anytime within the 3 weeks. As much as I could enjoy during the trip, part of me was worried sick. I dint know what to do if anything happens but lucky enough ah ma was strong, she always was. She pulled through for another 2 mths till....

One day, it was also our (Ryan and I) monthsary and we just finished dinner going for our movie in 5 mins when my mom called to say my ah ma had difficulties breathing and that she is in critical. When I reached her house, the house doctor was already there and he advised that she be send to the hospital immediately. Delima. my ah ma ever said since the last time she was admitted that if anything were to happen, she doesnt want to be sent to the hospital, she wanted to spent her last few moments at home. But we dint knew how long is she gonna suffer, so we called for the ambulance to AH. The doctor said that her lungs are filled with liquid and that she's too weak to receive any treatment, the only thing they could do was to pump in antibiotics to relieve her pain and within the next 2 hours we would be able to know which direction she's heading to.

Ah ma was then wheeled to the ward, and cause she had loads of phlegm stuck at her throat she was unable to speak. My Uncle was relating then that ah ma gave a super unhappy face trying to tell us no she doesnt want to be warded. I think she knew then that she was leaving cause she told the maid that she saw her brother (deceased) the previous night and din't want to go in the hospital. So, after an hour. All my uncles and aunts decided to bring her back home cause the antibiotics were not working anyway. The doctors were unsure, they say that she was too sick and that she might not even survive the journey back, but we're gonna try. Its my ah ma's wish so throughout the whole time while waiting for the paramedics, we kept telling her to hang on we're are bringing her home. Her face lightened up a lil and she nodded while forcing a smile.

Back at ah ma's place, my aunts' 2 friends were already there and as my aunt is a strong Buddhist, she always goes for prayers and whenever someone they know is about to pass on, they will rush down to the place to chant. So the chanting started at about 1am, only the children stayed, my dad brought my brothers back home first as they were tired, he asked if I wanted to go with him but lucky I did not cause at around 5am, I was sleeping on the couch when I was awaken by my mom saying that ah ma is leaving. I sprung up from the sofa and rushed to the room, the atmosphere was stale, we were told not to weep in front of my ah ma but was allowed to tear. We all knelt and chanted till she took her last breathe...

By noon, almost the whole family tree were there and the tent for the wake was up downstairs on the field where ah ma said she wanted it to be. I got to clean ah ma's body, it felt cold but she looked very peaceful like she was asleep. Then, the body was carried down to the wake where the coffin was. Did some rituals and the coffin was sealed, as Buddhist we believe that doing embankment was a painful thing for the dead so we did not and sealed the coffin.

It was a 5 days wake. I stayed over all 4 nights with jeroy, some of my other cousins stayed over on a few nights too. There were prayers every night. It was a huge tent, big, airy and spacious. Throughout this few nights, the whole family got really close, we were all quite close before but even closer that few nights. During the funeral a few of my dad's friends came too, a few of them had some 'special powers' and they saw my grandma's spirit wandering about the wake, smiling looking very happy to see all of us there together. On the last day of the wake, we send her body for cremation. Then collecting the remains the next day, putting them at a private temple at shrusberry street. We have to go pray every friday for the following 7 weeks, tmr will be the 5th.

Some stories to share: My uncle, aunt and the maid who took ultra good care of my ah ma dreamed of my grandma. She was back to the fat times in all of their dreams. The dreams that wanchuen (eldest brother's gf) had were unbelievable. The first dream was that she dreamed that she was in this room, brightly lighted and there were many people but non she could see their faces, everyone was waiting for someone-ah ma to return home. Then this lady (ah ma) returned but chueny couldn't recog her in the dream cause this lady was fierce looking and fat, just like how ah ma used to be in her younger days. Then she asked chueny who she was and then she was given a paper and pen to write all her particulars which she did. When chueny woke up, she told my brother immediately and drew out how the house looked like, she was puzzled cause it dint looked like my ahma's house or my house. When she drew out, my brother told her it was my ahma's old house which we spend our childhood there. Its demolished now just a few blocks away from their current place, when I saw the drawing she drew, I literally had goosebumps, very small chance of being wrong cause houses nowadays do not have that layout concept. Her 2nd dream was just a few days ago which she immediately called me when she woke up, she asked if we went to offer offerings and pray to her recently, I said yup we did. She then told me she dreamed that she was at the funeral when she was drawn to the coffin when suddenly my ah ma woke up and held her hand pulling her nearer to the coffin, she freaked out. My ah ma talked to her but she could only remember my ah ma telling chueny saying that she is fine now, she is happy and its very good here (there), tell them (the family tree) not to worry and not to cry anymore. My aunts and mom still cry every now and then. I told my family and aunts and they were really amazed. Sometimes, somethings are just hard to believe.

One of ah ma's last few wishes was that she hoped that the whole family would still gather every now and then and to keep in contact. Of course we would ! we would still organize trips overseas and bbq ocasionally. the first gathering would be on 26th june, a BBQ session which I'm organizing !! YEAH.

This is just a short tribute to my beloved ah ma. From her passing, I truely understood the meaning of not waiting till one's gone to regret not doing something for him/her. My other granny has been asking me to take her to vivo when I'm free cause she wants to eat the thunder rice there but I've not done so. I'm gonna bring her as soon as my term test ends. I dont want to regret if anything were to happen, things are just so unpredictable.

Oh my goodness, I just realized its an ultra long post.

2010-04-19T00:54:00.001+08:00

Pls, let year 3 be a smooth and easy year for me :)
Bless me with all the knowledge and hardworking cells I will need to get straight As, heh.
Also, pls make this last year (hopefully) a sweet memory :)

YEAR 3 FIRST SEM TERM 1 starts in a few hours, all the trying-to-be-on-time-routine begins once again, boring !

ANW, enough of school, I wanna thank daddy for getting us ( family) this wonderful gadget that I've longed for so long !
An IMAC :) YES YES YES AAAA ! wOOOWEEEEeeee..... apple is love,oh yea ! uh huh.

I'm Lovin' it.

Loving you too my darling boy, ryan :)
You've still yet to post :(

2010-04-10T07:13:00.003+08:00

SHIT ! I feel so fat.
I can't control my itchy mouth.
These few days, I ate lesser yet I've gained weight, OMG.
Hasan said:" your thighs are still so big after 5 weeks of not seeing each other".
Some say I'm not fat, but I know they are referring to only my upper body, I know I know ! :(
I see pretty clothes, think again, imagine myself in it, and nahhhh, look fat, don't match.

SERIOUSLY WANNA LOSE WEIGHT SOOO BADLY !
DONT TEMPT ME WITH FATTY FOODS CAUSE I'VE A SOFT SPOT FOR IT.

Lesser sweet drinks, more plain water.
Right meals at the right time.
Lesser and healthy snacks.
Have fast food meals once in a nong nong time.
Exercise, at least twice a week, must perspire if not not counted.
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and the list goes on.....

psst: I feel like sharon a few months ago... opps.
EH! but she damn slim now k! bet that her head is expanding if she reads this.

SIGH.. LOSE WEIGHT. yea.

2010-04-04T00:36:00.004+08:00

suddenly had the urge to fill this dead blog of mine with many words, emotions but no pictures. lazy.

Well, 3 weeks past so quickly and I'm back from my OITP indonesia trip. it was a blast, i made many many new friends, saw through some people and seriously, i do not understand why they can behave so 'abnormally'. argh just gives people reasons to gossip. haha !
This trip i would proudly say I HAVE NO REGRETS. 17 days is really too much to be type out in this small humble blog of mine, so facebook peeps !

Today is a really bad day for me. First was my singtel bills. Lazy to explain further but I have done nothing wrong so I'm not afraid. Then it was dad who accused me of mixing up and deleting his pictures from his digi cam when i did not. But he later realized that he was wrong, no apology but its alright as long as i'm not being accused. I'm sure no one likes the feeling of being wrong right? Then I just realized I lost something. Something very precious, I'm really dooommmmed. oh god ~~

Sigh.. I HATE MY MESSY ROOM. it just makes me even mad to see my small pathetic cramped room with so many things and no where to store. I've threw so many things away, its never ending. And I have so many things to do, reports, log book, article, presentation. I better get started.

Alright, gonna end my rants. dont say my problems are nothing compared to yours k. everyone has their own problems and things to be bothered with.

baby, i love you :)

2010-02-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

I see tears more than water.

It's damn pain, I swear.
You don't understand.

2010-01-26T00:58:00.004+08:00

WAH. If I could only lay my hands on one of these sexy things.
I WANTTTTTTTTT ! pls pls pls, my next top item I want in my List Of Wants(LOW)

okay I dont care, I really want want want.
I will buy it, bring it home and give my mom a shock of her life but I will be happy, brothers will be happy, daddy will nag a lil but I dont care. How selfish I am ^^ heh.

M201 - $999
FDB206 - $599
FDB166-$549
CITY266-$999
CITY206 - $699
AL-TR247 - $799

But oh well, I think I should not buy on impulse if not I think I will regret again.
Mummy doesnt really like me riding around the neighbourhood though my area is a really nice place to cycle around and I can cycle to vivo, how cool. Cause I fell of a bicycle before, causing 9 stiches on the back of my head on the first day of chinese new year, so lucky hor !
yea... but one fall cant stop me from doing smt I like what right, cycling can lose alot of weight and train my knees and ankles ! heh, so the moral of all this 'theory' of protecting myself is....

I REALLY WANNA GET ONE. -- FDB206 in GREEN, any rich and gracious soul out there?! :)

OH ! did I mention these are MINI COOPER brand? :)

2010-01-25T15:03:00.002+08:00

I'm really getting worse each single day. It's as though the lazy bugs living in me are multiplying and I mean really fast. It's the first day of the week again and I've missed 2 of my morning lessons laze in bed and finally got myself to shower and head to school in a cab AGAIN. Sigh! i really hope I can be more discipline and not procrastinate, looks like it's a war between the bugs and I again. G.O gooooo !!!
I'm in class using feng's iPhone to update this liveless pathetic long wordy blog of mine. I only update it for my own pleasure Because i know no one is interested in this mundane life of mine which revolves about school family and my gfs and bf. But oh well, I'm pretty happy with most things that I have now so Sulin, stop nagging so much will ya ?!
Alright, time to do some work so that I do not feel so useless.

Time to put this brainy brain of mine to good use *winks.

2010-01-21T00:12:00.003+08:00

The urge to blog suddenly kicked in.

Today was a great day spent with mummy ! I woke up late for my lesson @ 9, dozed back and woke up @ 10. kinda angry with myself for being so lazy, there's no discipline at all, I wasn't like this in secondary school though I din't have a choice back then.
Anw, my main purpose to head to school was to find my hard disc which I forgot to unplug after using in the lab, filed a report and hope they can get it back. pls pls pls :( mummy say I have to use my own mullah if I have to get a new one :(

Anw, head over to chueny's place before mummy picked brother and I up, sent brother to the air port. he's gonna be away for 2 weeks at new zealand for some army training thing. sigh, the house feels so empty. Dad's away, brother's away, 2nd brother in camp. :(
So, daddy left Egypt today to Beijing and will be back this saturday. Then flying to Indo on sunday. Will be back on 27th then fly off on the 1st to India I think. House gonna be so quiet, not used to daddy not being home so often :(
Butttttttt.. on the lighter note, I've signed up at bbdc ytd for my driving license, hope can get soon and when daddy travels, I hope mummy would lend me the car. also, I hope daddy can plan his business trips during my holidays so I can tag along with mummy. Heard he has to go korea and japan. WEEEEEEEE ! I just love travelling .. WO YAO ZUO PEK KEEE~~~~~~~

Haha, so today shopping was great ! I got a damn nice and cheap jeans from zara, 2 plain tees from F21 and mummy got a dress. and mummy got daddy a nice shirt from fcuk. Mummy damn cute, each time she wanted to use the credit card to pay, she will kiss the card and say thank you david (my dad). hahaha

I LOVE MY LONG LENGTHY WORDY BLOG. YEAH ^^

bye, report time, sucks.

2010-01-12T01:30:00.003+08:00

Hey ! I know the indo trip post was supposed to be up by the weekends but I was feeling rather lazy by the time I finished uploading the pics into photobucket. anw, I'll promise that post k ! but if you're so hard up for the photos, check out my fb ! (though I think no one's really interested) heheh!

Anw, this is just a quick update. its gonna be a hectic week this week. time really flies, its alrd the 2nd week of the term, another 4 blinks of the eye and its exams week! oh my goodness, dont think I'll be prepared, its the finals of year 2 ! I just hate reports and presentations, its really stressful when the deadlines are all so close together :( boohoo.

Oh well, at least I'll be well trained for university as compared to the JC kids right? though university is another level higher I know. But for all I know now, I may not even make it to U. that's really sad cause I want to.

time for bed now, the only thing that makes me perk up would be my best friend always .. no no SOMETIMES, FOOD. thought it would be you? haha you're not concentrating! THING la! but anw, your messages and xoxo(s) brighten up my day too ! hehe..

TOODLES my friends ! :)

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY TEH (11.01.10), treasure you deeply as my friend/darling 2 ! :) & HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLIE (12.01.10) take care in army ! :)

2010-01-06T04:05:00.004+08:00

quick update !

Indo trip was a blast, details to be updated this weekend if possible with peektures of course, hopefully ! supposed to return on the 28th but 1/2 way to the airport brother and I decided to extend our stay cause we havent had enough fun! So we just forgo our return ticket and bought a new value air ticket back on the 1st.
Its lame to extend the lufthansa ticket cause we have to pay extra 100 euros per pax whereas the value air was just USD120 for 2 pax. but seriously, value air is omg, don't really like it :( yup, and phew! our baggage dint exceed ! my luggage alone was around 20kg? total was 41 + and he just closed an eye :) plus we still exit after checking in as we still had 2 huge hand carry bags outside with chueny. haha lame system, check in alrd still can exit and enter but of cus its to our advantage :P
So, when we touched down, bought alcohol and collected our bags. there ryan was with my parents! hehe, so shocked but happy to see him :) we had dinner over at alexandra's zhi char @ jiamin's place. food was fab as always and she was so nice to treat us to a huge bowl of soup and good price again ! so ps ! THANKS JIAMIN :)

yup.. tbc this weekend for the indo trip.

Anw, its the first week of the last term for year 2 ! CHIONG ALL THE WAY !!!
got back some papers alrd and its quite surprising for some. well, here the long story goes....
Structual Analysis I'm glad cause I'm improving! from 70 to 88 and this time 95 !! pls clap and be proud of me if you're my true friend. hahaha
CAD. MUST READ THIS STORY AND FEEL ANGRY FOR ME! printing error in the paper and after cracking my brain for 15 mins I finally asked the lecturer and at first she said : ohh no problem ! but I asked her huh? then how to do? she turned back took a second look and went: ohh ya ! printing error! dont blame me ar, blame the person who set the paper ! in a sarcastic manner. pissed off la ! wasted my precious time. so I only had 15 mins left to draw the diagram into microstation and out of the 15 mins, 10 mins my program hung and had so many problems. so I drew a tiny tiny lil bit and time's up ! OMG, seriously I nearly cry on the spot, my aim of 90 marks just went POOOF cause of a printing error that she dint announce! so end up for the drawing outta 40 marks, i got bloody 8 marks only! 8 pathetic marks. but lucky for written calculations outta 60 i got 54. overall I passed, but still upset though.
hydrulics. this one seriously I can kill myself. CARELESS LIKE BLIND SHIT. numbers also can copy wrong. so all wrong, really my heart crying ar! and my written working I wrote wrongly but when I typed into calculator I press all correctly just forgot to write out, my answer all correct but 0 marks cause my first step I wrote wrongly! OMG OMG OMG. pull out a dagger and stab me 10 times now pls. but luckily I still passed.
Math and green building paper on fri. dont know how many times to stab myself now.

but NOW, really at this moment I think I should just publish post and slp. its 430 am and my class is at 9. YEAHHHH ! -.-

alright, toodles!

2009-12-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

OMG can't even recall when was the last time since I blogged.

So, quick update yea? Test week was over about 2 weeks ago? Din't really studied much and I'm angry at myself for being so lazy once again. I only studied in school the last min revision kind and when I get home in the evening, all I do is lay on the sofa like a super lazy pig and just watch tele till late and just doze off. next day just go for my paper. GRR. anw, over alrd, shall not brood over what kinda results I'll get.

Anw, since 2nd bro had 10 days off after his POP. mummy decided to have a short holiday if not his holidays would be so boring. hong kong, bkk fully booked. so ended up going to malaysia - malacca. 3D2N only cause we had to return by wednesday for a impt dinner. trip was relaxing but taxing for daddy cause he had to drive and he was tired and stress from his work load, poor daddy. anw, all we did was eat and shop and I mean we seriously ate alot ! though we were still full from the previous meal, we still went for a sumptuous meal, i gained like super alot of weight from that 3 days alone and I can feel it. bloated ! anw, thanks parents ! :)

Wednesday - despite feeling very bloated from all the good food from the short trip, I still had to go for the very impt dinner. yuyu came to pick me around 1 and we headed to raffles city for some shopping. managed to get my heels and a new pair of vans ! DUPER HAPPY =) yuyu met her buyer and she dropped me home. got ready and headed to raffles hotel for the dinner. its dad's good friend from america. we usually have dinner with him once a year for his birthday cum christmas celebration. and we get to eat in the presidential suit which is so cool with private musician playing music and people serving us with drinks and all ! i likeee. the best part would be the food ! though its those super formal dinner but the foooddddd omgggg. 9 course meal that includes whole piece so abalone and double boiled ginseng soup with huge pieces of sharks fin. wahhh droool ar. haha ! bloated x2 !!!

Saturday - afternoon I flew off to indonesia with eldest brother. gonna stay at chueny's place ( bro's gf) had some sakae sushi before we boarded the plane then some in flight food. met chueny when we touched down togther with jessilyn her young cousin who is soooo cute, her uncle and her mom. back to bogor where we had some supper then then turned in for the night.
My fingers are aching so is my brain. I'm going to continue my indonesia trip when I get back and its gonna be interesting with all the pictures ! SERIOUS. damn fun ! actually I cant really remember exactly when we did what but I'll try my best to update :)

oya ! 2nd brother dint get to go to OCS which our whole family tree is sad and disappointed but we dont blame you brother ! its alright k? everyone do have their ups and downs, we all know how much you wanted to enter OCS but dont blame yourself too much alright, just finish this 2 years in medic school and at least you get to learn some new things that will come in handy in future! And we know you couldn't make it to OCS is just because you couldn't do standing broad jump we know, we know. 2 years will pass quickly then you'll enter NTU, another 3 years and you'll see how proud we will be of you putting on the square hat =) <3>

soo.. toodles everyone. hope you enjoyed my super lengthy post !

AND... baby, I love and miss you so muchy ! hehehe. cheesy much but I dont care. :P

2009-12-01T23:23:00.003+08:00

wow. so much i've done lately apart from school.
but now I can't remember what i've done that I wanted to post about, opps.

anw, school's really hectic. overloading projects and reports to submit but luckily for me I have great efficient group members that helped me take a load off my shoulders. another thing that is stressing me out is that term test week is just next week and I've so much I've yet to cover/learn.
sigh..

however, as the saying always goes 'always look on the bright side of life ~~~~~'.. so yup.
have booked my tickets to indonesia with eldest bro on the 19th and will be back on the 28th. 9 days. don't miss me peeps. and in between from 11th to 18th, dad's still considering a trip so yea, holidays the whole decemeber, i really need that !
to second that happy note, mummy's increasing my allowance! yippes now I can save more, or spend more? hmmmm. :P
and to third that daddy has signed a amex supplementary card for mua! gleeeeeee. but its only cause I wanted to help rosalind so that she's able to hit her quota, i know its only 1 but still... I'm not gonna be like my brothers and abused the credit card so I'm gonna let mummy keep it and I'll get it from her when i need it. defeats the purpose I know, but its better to be safe than sorry.

alright, gonna bury my head in my notes now.
gonna head to fort canning with the year 3s tmr then tsaiting and feng will be staying over my place to study. egg-cited at least some ppl to keep my company and study through the quiet night.

and lastly, bon voyage to daddy who just left for kore a an hour ago! hopefully he buys some seaweed and my kimchi for me. thats all I need and want :)

OYA AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST LIL COUSIN, ZHENZHI ! finally you can watch some NC16 movies.

2009-11-17T23:57:00.003+08:00

I was super duper sleepy throughout class today, idk why.
Slept through struc but luckily nothing new was taught, then I selpt for the first 1/2 of hydraulics but luckily I woke up for the impt part. was really sleepy that when I sit I could just dozed off. dooooo.

contact time was pretty much waste of time, wasn't really paying attention, nth impt anw. was more of playing with isk's cam taking peek tures and all.. HAHA. met teh with yuyu at the back gate for their smoke break, yuyu drove me to the bus stop at her place. took 30 down to vivo to get some stuff before parents picked me up.

tv-ed the whole night while reading a lil of my notes, but was concentrating more on the tele :P

thats all for my tuesday.

my tears all dried up around the corner of my eyes,
yet it still bleeds in my heart.
The scars aches each time I see or think of you / it.
Will someone bring me out of this pain?

the emo phase, but not to worry, cause I'm really fine :)

CHEERS!

2009-11-17T00:55:00.002+08:00

I woke up late this morning so disappointed with myself. tsk.
Cabbed to school, the cab driver was damn blur, he wanted to turned into the exit lane of the gate plus he returned more change than he should and the way he drives, power. anw, I still managed to get to my destination on time.

so.. today was the testing of our bridge, though we din't do very well compared to the rest, I certainly learnt alot of new things, and I bet if we had another chance, we could and would win :)
anw, good job sunny buddy and feng :) we really put in alot of effort and sorry again I couldnt join you guys during the weekends.

Long day at school today :( but lessons were so- so tiring. joesph teo is a really damn good lecturer :) he manages to make math lesson fun and not so stressing for the students :)

Walked to the bus stop with sunny buddy and after he left I saw this very familar face alighting from the bus, guess who?! it was DEAREST SERENE whom went MIA for dont know how long! I havent seen her in months, serious, MONTHS. so we decided to have dinner, off to clementi's sakae sushi :) nette came to join us awhile. we caught up, updated and just lamed around. sake was filling and so damn cheap :) less than 10 bucks and I was quite satisfied. we went arcade to play after, enjoyed! then we had a lil finger food and coconuts from the night market. bumped into terrance, jason and lulu. bused home after. MISS YOU SERENE, am glad I met you today ! ^^

its 1am now and I promised myself to slp by 1. so... toodles everyone!

its really unbelievable how you managed to do all that.

2009-11-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

Just got back from a short getaway with eileen and her parents to KL, sunway lagoon for 2D1N :)

It was super super fun :) Will update more about the trip together with photos when I get them from eileen.

Anw, its gonna be bridge testing day tmr and I'm so nervous. Sorry guys couldn't help you'll out during the weekends :( it's gonna be a long long day at school tmr. lessons @ 10 but gonna meet hasan and feng for bridge thingy @9. so that will be 9-6 tmr! oh me goodness, I'm gonna be so so tired tmr.

i'm gonna pack my new members of my wardrobe and unpack my smelly clothes then SLEEP. though I slept ALOT throughout the whole journey I'm still worn out and now I'm having a slight headache :(

ADIOS !

want and can't shouldn't be a feeling tied together, cause it sucks.

2009-11-13T00:01:00.006+08:00

school's damn damn damn tiring. weather's damn damn damn irritating.

structural bridge project so demanding. sighhh.

ytd I went to meet sharon for dinner at heeren, we had macs. saw jeff there too, macs was good cus i was craving for it. CRAVING FOR MAC. yea, serious. shopped around hunting for another pair of shoes, to no avial. over to rockstar @ cine. spent an hour inside trying and all but dont really 101% feel for any pair =( had frolicks, mandy was working but boss looking so no free frolicks =( slacked and bused home.

today went school early to do the bridge. progress 10%. lessons.. and homed. baba send me home but things turned out to no one's expectations. not the very word you would wanna hear, but - sorry. whether I meant it or not, the words that came out, i can't swallow back.
anw, cousin send my niece and I to NUS for the RGS night concert thingy. wasn't that bad, I kinda enjoy though 1/2 my mind wasn't really focusing. cousin send us back after..

RGS night

my niece and I

RANDOM PICS FROM THE OTHER DAYS.
damn pretty =)

took this through the total station, DAMN COOL la. like sniper.
GOT THE LOOK NOT?! hahaa

okay anw, things to rejoice about: EILEEN SIM, my EX-LOVER PASSED HER TP. yea! I forsee many many supper nights =( and I sms-ed mummy sharing with her this good news, you know what she said?! she say "aiyo then I'll call you ah fat that's for sure!! remember fat is ...." WAH this is really my mother =) anw, congrats sistaaaa ! and and I said EX-LOVER because she divorced me on fb bec she got back tgt with eugene =) happy for you la. muahhhs.

the end of my post for today,
I slapped my mouth.

2009-11-10T01:03:00.003+08:00

I wasted 7 bucks on cab fare this morning, so much for saving money ! arghhhh. stupid medicine but finally i finished it. stupid alarm, dint ring. stupid weather, so hot so i slept in aircon, too comfy! stupid curtain, forgot to tie up, so no sunshine to wake me up. stupid lazy me for not waking up.

Anw, lessons as usual. after CE con, the girls surprised wee, hanlong and wangqi each a small bd cake :) I stole a lil chocolate off the cakes :P pictures and all... then headed to the workshop to start on the bridge. only feng and I working on it. hasan will only be back on wednesday and shafiq went missing! submission this monday- DIE.

took train with feng, went JP get curry puffs for mummy. wanted to head to chueny's place to get the disc but daddy said he's going to pick mummy NOW. so I just hung around JP, in the end... he picked me up only an hour later. GRRR.

had dinner at home, 99 was glad :)

anw, peeek tures !

when, why, what, who, which and how.

2009-11-09T01:29:00.002+08:00

Spend my saturday afternoon home. went out in the evening to meet eldest bro, chueny, her sister, her brother and her brother's gf at funan with mummy. helped her sister get the ipod touch. They left so brother mummy and I had dinner before heading home. We were too tired to shop.

Sunday, woke up early in the morning. Went to Hougang, Society for the aged and sick. Mom's company holding some event there for the old folks which included uncle wilson's super duper powerful singing performance, some change face master which was very entertaining, some dance and some duet with flute and gu zheng. overall, not bad cus uncle wilson saved the day by singing more songs and taking the iniative to be the MC. he's damn nice. After that, daddy treated uncle wilson to crystal jade and I was glad I tagged along this morning. FOOD WAS FAB ^^ headed to suntec royal sporting house to get my van's shoe. supposed to just get one simple 50 bucks pair but ended up getting 2 cus of promo. i like ^^ thanks mummy! home after.

medicine damn drowsy as usual and I dozed off for about 2 hours on the sofa. love the sofa ! headed to ah ma's house then went for steamboat at joochiat with brother, chueny and her sister.
getting sick of steamboat :(

Home and there's school tmr. yawn, gonna have the monday bluessssssss.

-I feel the difference. you've changed & no one's to be blamed.

2009-11-07T04:02:00.002+08:00

Was really drowsy from the medication, could not wake up in time for BE. Went to school at 1 for math, wasnt a wasted trip cause we covered one whole topic and was quite productive. except that my limbs were shaking and there was not much energy, had to force myself to write, perhaps just the medication cus I was fine after awhile.

Homed after and comp-ed. met the girls in the night, chilled at taka then to cine. darling2 came and we went to bukit merah for BKT. Then to west coast park before darling2 sent me home. Chilled awhile downstairs with nette too.

I thought I was strong, but its harder than I thought. I have no one to fall back on. Every night I ponder if I made the right decision, thinking it was better for us. I was hard on you, I was selfish, but there's no other way out. You wanted 1, then 2, then 1 but none I could give you. My mind is in a total mess, the angel talks to me in the day, and the devil talks in the night. the angel forces me to remember the sweet memories while the devil plants hatred and anger and all the things you did.
arghhh... please let me be busier with school at least it takes me off all these stupid emo shit thoughts.

i miss and hate you.

2009-11-05T13:57:00.004+08:00

Stupid cough ! WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY CRAVINGS WHEN I'm SICK ?! boo.

Anw, I forced myself to school the past 3 days though I'm having a slight fever which fluctuates from 37+ to 38 degrees. i don't feel like skipping school cus its very hard to catch up. The previous sem i missed 1 week of school due to the quarratine and another 3 days two weeks later cause I was damn sick, It was really tough catching up. BUT I'm SMART LA. hahaha. kidding.
AND I KNOW SHARON IS ENVIOUS! she wants my MC ! ahahhaa. that lazy pig.

Anw, finally went to see the doctor after a torturing 2 weeks of persistant cough and fever the past few days. Doctor said: My air way is slightly closed thus causing the wheezing sounds and the chest area is tight :( the throat looks quite swollen too :( and I have fever too :( EQUALS UP TO: antibiotics and loads of other medicine for this and that. so irritating!!! oh ya! and if I still dont feel well, I have to go back for a chest x-ray by next week. Upon hearing that, i scared. 2 days MC for me to rest.

anw, all pray that susu gets well :D

Walked to the outside bus stop and suddenly I felt so giddy so I forced myself to walk all the way back home. Now I feel so much better in my comfort zone :) Gonna have something to eat and take my medication.

I'M GOING TO SCHOOL TMR BY HOOK OR BY CROOK.

2009-11-02T16:35:00.004+08:00

Fickle minded weather. causing me to fall sick :( :( . But I dont want MC. I dont want to be chasing after the shadows of others always.

Having class now, mathcad. I better pay attention despite my ultra heavy head.

How nice it would be to have a hug right now :(

My super tired face, dying in class.
Pulling my muscles together for a smile, how fake. HAHA.

Innocence that don't lie :(

To lead, To overcome, To excel. -OCS

2009-11-02T03:21:00.007+08:00

Suddenly I feel sick of school. I stared at the timetable and I very much wanted to cry. God damn stress, no one understands. you say you do, but you dont till you're in my shoes.

I feel lonely deep inside because suddenly I have no one to share my pain and misery, no one to wipe my tears dry, no one to say I believe you can do it and mean it, no one to pat my back and say I'm proud of you, no one to comfort me when i'm low, no one to laugh with me, no one to say you're not fat, no one to hug me in their arms and not let go, .... no one to.. to..
love me.

I'm sad and emo.

If I were to die tmr, how would you remember me as?

a-l-c-o-h-o-l is not my best friend.

2009-10-24T15:02:00.004+08:00

first week of school down and i'm proud of myself for not skipping any lesson.
in fact, i'm egg-cited for every single lesson.

nothing much to say.. attending oii's and sia's birthday party later @ valli bali.
gonna be pretty fun!

thats all...

today is not a good day. date sucks but yet today happens to be oii's, darren's and yong zuan's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALL.
happy supposed-to-be happy 14th to me and you too.

you re-opened the wound,
and now its harder than ever to heal.

2009-10-22T02:33:00.003+08:00

today was a short day at school. i was angry at myself for oversleeping despite sleeping early the previous night. had to cab to school, waste money. lucky thing liqi was late and we shared the cab fare.

geomatics day. lecture , tutorial and prac. new assignment, the assignment is to last through the whole term but my group the speedy group, finised 1/2 alrd. next week another 1/2. check through again and we're done. haha easy task ! and the sun was a b i t c h.

met joey for a huff a few puffs after school. JOEY DID, I DID NOT. the sun was really so hot that bus 33 was just within a few jogging steps away from me but i chose to take my own sweet time to walk rather then chasing the bus. tiong to meet sharon b4 heading to city hall. BK-ed for lunch with px then went shopping. I GOT A NEW SHORTIES. BOOMS BOOMS. yeah ! hc came down and so did jasper and corn. slacked awhile before the 4 girls took a cab down to fep. accompanied hc to trim her brows. I saw a shoe from river island which i really like, hc likes it too. sharon and px says it looks good on me. 99 bucks. HOW?! decided to check left foot first, but no nice shoes now. SAD.

slacked outside awhile. gen, ho, seetho, oii and heng came too. went over to cine. they had dinner. the girls went to play l4d. GOOD GAME. satisfying ^^ homed after.

it was a good day.

school at 1 tmr but i have bloody therapy at 1130. HOW?! go or not to go. tmr then decide.

you're still in my little muscle :)

2009-10-20T01:12:00.004+08:00

FIRST DAY OF THE NEW TERM.

got back some results, some expected, some shocking.

missed my mates so much, i bet they missed me too =)

wasn't very used to a day at school so i was dead beat, went home str8 after e last class,.

weather was scorching hot grr.

mom lazy to pick me from school so i bused home with sunny.

napped and dinnered.

comp and sleep =)

for the sake of my 3 bucks, i'm gonna TRY to not skip school this whole term. haha shirlene bet 2 bucks i confirm will and so did yamei with 1 buck. damn =( perseverance.

you know, sometimes, i wished i could just be very selfish and not spare a thought for others' feelings. it sucks to be in a dilemma cus you cant make up your mind. it sucks when situations you wished you would never be in happens and you're stuck there alone, facing the problem alone. true, your friends are there to support but in the end, the decision is still all up to you.

i hate hurting people but as much as i do, i get hurt in the end. its always the case. believe in retribution. now i've learnt to sometimes listen to what your inner voice says, be strong and know who is true to you - still learning.

confidence is what i need.
happy meter: 95%

2009-10-18T03:32:00.003+08:00

FRIDAY - halloween night safari and it was fun. would have been better with you but oh well...
so it was just chueny, brother and cousin. was slightly different than last year..
pics will be up asap. homed around 2am cus dad brought us to jurong fishery port again. bought some prawns and crabbies.

saturday, today. was just another ordinary saturday.
woke up, prepared and headed for lunch before visiting grandma.
old maid left and new maid arrive. I"M GLAD =)
had a simple dinner at home but i dint eat much.
brother made bratwurst breads and corn with a lil red wine to go along.
had a good chat with chueny before we had a power nap.
headed to vivo for hurt locker 12:10 show.
homed after, it was a man's flick war war war but i thought it was pretty good. rated 5 stars with a female director, interesting =)
gonna shower and turn in.

anw, happy depavali =)

2009-10-16T09:52:00.002+08:00

its the last weekday of the long term break. looking back, i've done NOTHING. not a single accomplishment to be proud of. time flies, its time to head back to school. miss my classmates :)

so much have happen since, KL trip was a blast.
as much as i enjoyed, it became a wake up call for me to realize about US.

i dont feel like saying much here, because when I blog, i hope to blog about the happy times only so when I read back in future, I will only be reminded about the happy memories i have.

Anw, i just felt like saying all of a sudden - I LOVE MY GIRLS :D I LOVE MY FAMILY :) and i appreciate everyone who truely cares for me. thank you and i'm really grateful to be able to have you people in my life.

I'm gonna stay strong for those that need me that way =)

2009-09-25T15:02:00.004+08:00

havent been working the whole week, sent in my schedule but no response from lynn :(
quick updates:

ZOO with eldest brother, chueny, chueny's younger bro, elder bro and his gf and my cousin zhizhi on sunday. we went in late around 3 plus but managed to see almost all the animals before leaving.
overall was fun, weather wasnt a bitch.

so monday, went to visit granny before heading to taka to meet baby, went to heeren to shop around then over to cathay to catch a movie. the ugly truth, not a bad flick. baby bought loads of things! he bought my belated present, GUITAR HEROS WORLD TOUR ! hehehe.. bought himself shirts, shoes, pants. haha, had dinner at crystal jade which btw, PS's outlet sucks! the food wasnt as great. anw, took a cab home. fixed up the game and played! yipppe.. cant wait to ask ppl over to play with me! THANKS BABY! love you and i hope you love your present too :)

tuesday, ronny called me around 11am. ask me to go swimming and tanning. since i had nothing to do, I agreed. woke up packed and she picked me up in a cab. was fun! temasek was quiet. I swam 10 laps and sharon swam 20. HAHA i know, i fatty. anw, we tanned after swimming cus the sun was hotter. so-so only la.. then we went jaccuzzi(however you spell that). crapped alot. I tricked sharon back into the pool cus it was damn cold the water. showered after and again i tricked her into walking out to the bus stop with me and wait for shili to pick her up when she could have waited at temasek club. opps! anw, i bused to baby's place, had dinner with him and slacked. played wii before catching the last bus home. UBER TIRED!

wednesday, slacked my ass the whole day. baby striked a small fortune from 4D and soccer again! hahaha. maid pulled a stunned in the night. guess she's going home next week, as much as it sounded disgusting, I still really pity her. oh well, shouldnt put so much emotions always.

thursday, woke up, showered and went down for my dental appt. cost mummy a huge bomb! but I'll pay mummy back even if it was just 1/2. homed and packed my room. baby came over, played gh awhile before cabbing to river valley to ease my cravings. SALTED EGG CRABS! hehehe. boyfriend loved it too! so I'm happy cus he will still go a 2nd time with me. bused to fep for his haircut after while i went to trim my brows. YEAH! clean brows now. walked over to taka next for some finger food before heading home :)

friday, have a few errands to run but i'm very lazy and ultra broke that i dont feel like going out :( drank shake for breakfast and lunch so that I dont have to spend money on food at the same time, lose some weight :D:D

alright, thats all for the week. stay tune for more updates.

I love you baby.

2009-09-12T03:05:00.004+08:00

Finally started work as a cashier :) its quite fun actually but it can be pretty scary esp when dealing with money that isnt yours and counts up to thousands !

training on tuesday with lynn at ION outlet and started work officially at suntec outlet on wednesday and thursday.

FRIDAY - finally 2nd bro enlisted into the army! tekong to send him off with parents, grandparents and shermies. realised it ended early so down to far east shopping centre to get extra piece of uniform acc shermies to sign a contract at ngeeann city then headed to st to help out as cashier. I FEEL LIKE THE HEROINE. haha ! I saved carrie cause the crowd was oh my goodness. at the same time... earn a few extra bucks. met up with leen, hc and lulu then frz, heng and wee. had late mac again, FATSSs :( shared cab with leen and hc.

Eldest bro's commissiong parade at safti later on in the evening. the whole family including aunts and grandparents will be attending. so excited ! I LOVE PARADESSSS of any kind.

rather lenghty posts recently cause I havent asked leen to send me pics since a decade ago. LOL

we learn as we progress,
and our feelings grows as time brings us to another level.
i love you deeply baby (:

2009-09-07T22:56:00.004+08:00

yawn.. another bumming around day.
hoped to visit the dental clinic today but it was closed, so I will have to wake up super early tmr so that I can get an appointment, hopefully :( wanna just get my tooth done, which would cost a bomb ! :(
woke up around 2, on the tele and watched all the way till evening. went down to buy toto and continue tv-ing. wanted to head down town to meet the girls but was just so so freaking lazy to move my ass to shower.
finally parents were home around 7 plus 8 and we went up for my first meal of the day ! :D
thats all for my day.

Baby: Every min and sec of your time is so precious to me now ! I miss you so much:)

2009-09-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

havent been blogging much recently. wait not like I did ever since I started blogging hee ^^
so... lets see what have I been up to.

since school's closure, I have just been bumming around. baby time a little here and there for movies, dinners lunches and lazing around. class gathering at east coast BBQ which rocked. out with eileen to register my driving license, BTT on 16th september ! woohooo i'm so excited, we met up with joeyho and serene for mahjong at my club, AUTOMATED table rocked ! its so cool and I waited bloody 2 years to be 18 so that I could book the room. haha.. normal saturday dinners at thai express with family and today went over to visit granny before cabbing to baby's place, slacked and went to catch year one. as usual jack black and his funny lame shows. then we had dinner before I went to meet the girls at holland, they finished dinner by the time I reached, had frolicks before bus-ing home with hc :)

thats all... baby is starting his ITP tmr and I'm so sad cus it means lesser time for each other.
haha, I'll go crazy so even if I'm so freaking lazy I'm going back to epicentre to work but as cashier this time. haha. WORK HARD BABY ! I'm behind you.. always ^^

Just dont feel the same anymore
Cant feel no effort no more
slower traffic
between the bridges of our heart.

2009-08-19T01:51:00.007+08:00

Term test week. Papers weren't good as expected. Dint enter the exam room with confidence :( Anw, Today 18.09.09 is eldest bro's birthday ! :D:D HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER ! Studied till around 9pm and decided to cab home. shared cab with yuyu and it was only 4.5 each ! FREAKING CHEAP. was so so tired.. Anw, mummy called me earlier and say that she would be slping alrd but when in the lift I realized that I dint have my key and mom was home alone. I'm sorry for 'waking' you up mummy!
Noticed a weird atmosphere when i entered the house cause all the room doors were closed.. anw, too tired to ask anything, I opened my room door and TADAH! My whole room and bed were filled with balloons ! and suddenly my brothers popped from behind the bed and popped the paper bomb. I was really shocked ! then they surprised me with a HUGE helium balloon bought by chueny and eldest brother ! MY FAVOURITE ! Took some pics then was given a treasure map and a huge card and was told to search for my present and I can't come out till they call me. So I started taking pictures everywhere before finding the present. and I found it within a min. It was tied to the window grill and hung outside the window, haha how innovative ! Then I was asked to go out. TADAH AGAIN ! on the dining table laid 2 pizzas with candles lited :) my pizza 'cake'. phew! I nearly asked the cab uncle to go to west coast mac drive thru after sending yuyu. So we sang BD song and 'cut' the 'cake'. haha.. I was really very very touched that my tears nearly rolled out.

Shermies said since I always plan everyone's bd, it is now theirs to plan mine. so sweeet ! they all ganged up to bluff me somemore. mummy said she's home alone and still act angry cause she was slping and I ding dong somemore. Eldest brother told me he had to book into camp tonight and I believed. HAHA. it was really well planned and I dint suspect anything, seriously. I was too stress from the test that I dont even feel that it's my birthday. haha...

anw, its 2am plus now, so HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME ! :) hehe.

some pics to show.

mini ice cream cakes bought by eldest bro and chueny and surprised me last night :D
they were so good and yummy and they packaging was so cute !

BALLOONS X10 !

I SPOTTED IT !

Pizza 'Cake' hehehe

I wish for 10 more wishes. humans are greedy creatures by nature :p

Eyes too small she rather have NO eyes !

haha ~~Amy~~ Susu Whinehouse to be.

ZARA demin top by SHERMIES AND LIANGIES ! :D so sweeet <3<3

I have bouncy hair. and I am ~~Fankee~~ Funky Seng ! (my ex-lecturer)

Sexeahhhhh.. arent I?

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BOO ! :D

ok, bye !
THANKS ALL FOR THE WISHES AND THE B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L SURPRISE ! :D:D

2009-08-08T01:50:00.003+08:00

Thursday - school as usual then accompanied yuyu to get her hair mess trimmed ! we were early so walked around fep first and yuyu got herself a shirt from sidewalk10. waited and giggled at yuyu while louis works her hair. haha some shots taken while yuyu trims her hair. went over to ion to find remy, got some finger food then bus-ed home.
Friday - EGG-CITED cause i'll be going to genting at around 3am early sat morning :) so school the whole day. last lesson of gems, YEAH ! but kinda missed the lessons cus they were interesting. anw, made baby wait ahile for me and he was so hungry. i'm sorry 1. So we took bus 33 all the way till I saw shell station at geylang but mistook it for joochiat so we alighted, walked a distance and I realised I was wrong. baby was getting a lil impatient by then, i'm sorry 2. but anw, we still managed to have our steamboat ! omg, i ate the steamboat 3 times in less than 2 weeks POWER. took a bus home after that.
While eating, mummy called and told me a bad news. genting trip cancelled cus my grandma had a seizure again and was admitted into hospital this time slightly more serious. but she told me to go home as daddy may still bring us to genting if not the hotels wasted, but when I reached bukit merah mummy called and say grandma's condition quite critical and doctor told them to be prepared. oh my god, that doesnt sound very good so I rushed to AH immediatly. dint get to see ah ma though but she was given 4-5 jabs to stablise instead of the usual 1-2. she's asleep so everyone went back home.. its damn scary !
Cause grandma was stubborn and wanted to cut down on her medication thinking she was feeling better. She's very hot headed very very kind and nice at the same time. no one can stop her, if you make her angry. oh my god confirm get 'slapped' left right centre ! hahaha..
I'll pray for the best.

some pics from yuyu's haircut and steamboat night with baby. took quite a number of pics with baby but gonna upload only one cus the rest not very clear.

this amount was only 1/2 way through. WAH ! yuyu hair is damn thick.

I'm sorry yuyu ! now you know why was I laughing to myself ! louis probably thought I was mad.
Its my sweet sweet love ! :) hees.
its these little imperfections that make you perfect, to me :)

2009-08-06T05:02:00.003+08:00

Wednesday.

couldnt pull myself outta bed, 3 alarms and intervals of 5 times each alarm, 5 mins snooze each interval doesnt work on me. lesson @ 8 and i'm still baking under the sun on the beach in my dreams. So i decided to give school a miss but thinking that mr chen doesnt mark me absent even if i'm ridiculusly late for class so I went to shower and prepare. reached class at 10 and luckily it was break, told mr chen I went to the doctor to collect my report -.- HAHA i feel so bad cus mr chen is an ultra nice lecturer ! spent the last hour surfing the web.

Had lunch @ fc1 then studied with shir and yamei till around 5 plus 6. We are the best, we spent the entire wed afternoon on ONE bloody SA question. but that particular ques was really tough and tricky, used up 4 whole pages and still not done. hahaha!

Being a very nice friend, I accompanied shirlene to take 196 to after dover thinking that there was 175 there to jin tai haha. we alighted and there was no 175, instead she could have continued her journey in 196 to jin tai straight. but the bus stop we took from dint state that. HAHA and being very shirlene, she still thank me HAHA for bringing her to the wrong bus stop. lmao.

Walked back to ntss bus stop to take 33 down to ikea. met up with the 2 retards yuyu and ronny. had dog breads and ice cream = FATS. but who cares?! I was hungry and that was like the cheapest and the most fufilling meal there. As usual, laughters and all, walked to opp queensway to wait for my parents to pick me. but my mom said 20 mins and a bus came so I hopped in thinking they could pick me up at the bus stop at my house so they wouldnt have to make a U-turn. who knows the moment I got up, my mom called me to say they've reached -.-"
alighted the next stop then.

HOMED and I'm supposed to be typing my report out now, but I got distracted 1/2 way.
BYE !

baby has been really nice and temper-less these few days :) I just love him so much ! hehe.

2009-08-04T15:33:00.004+08:00

I'm EXHAUSTED !

Last week's updates: Thursday had steamboat buffet at joochiat with family which was awesome ! Friday - knocked down sharon's house with yuyu, dragged her out, headed down town, finally met the girls after so long. but a call from brother and I rushed home. He wanted me to sent him off to the airport, he's going for a 2week thailand training. and so i bused home, chueny stayed over :) Sat - Headed over to baby's place, studied a little bit then met chueny again at jurong, headed down to eunos, met up with panda, ken, andre and benson. went to joochiat for steamboat again ! ROCKS MY SOCKS ! love it, cheap and good :) cabbed home with chueny after that. Sunday - woke up early in the morning, went to JB with family, to view houses, the houses are super huge and cheap, but I see no point in getting a house there. anyway, it was fun except for the blazing sun which was damn irritating ! homed in the evening, slept and had a yummy fufilling zhi char dinner with family at home bought by brother2.

MONDAY (brother2 birthday surprise) - met up with sherms and chueny after school, headed to dfs for a little shopping. then over to fep to trim my brows. met mummy there as she was engraving her brows. bused to city hall while mummy went home :) went to buy the birkenstocks that brother wants then collected the cake from canelle. bought some wrapping paper and all before doing a little shopping at river island and topshop ! got my shorts from topshop YEAH ! birthday month = 20% off + member voucher $10 !! then had late dinner at MOF. food was not bad :) cabbed home around 1130pm and wrapped the present downstairs before sneaking up, came out of the 14th floor instead of 15th. mummy helped to sneak a lighter in the plants, used it to light the cake before pressing the bell and covering the hole. brother opened the door nad TADAH !!!! he was so so so shocked ! cus sherms bluffed him that she's home putting mask and about the slp, he believed ! Hahahaha yeah ! so cut cake, bathe and sleep :) good day !

TO THE 4th AUG BABIES I KNOW: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BROTHER2 ( ZHENG LIANG), YAMEI's BF(WINSTON) and SHERMAINE's MOTHER :):) hope you guys have many happy returns to come :)

you entered my world, so now, there's only you and me :)

2009-07-26T13:23:00.004+08:00

Friday was a good day :) ryan and I went on our lovely date to celebrate our 11th month together and as planned we caught harry potter and the 1/2 blood prince !

show was at 8 so we had our dinner at mahatthan first ! we shared the fried platter for 2 and omg ! when the food came, i was shocked ! it was just a big plate of fried mess ! which included fried fish, calamari, mushroom, prawns, fries and buttered rice ! it was good but too much to finish ! we ordered some mocktail too. baby's one tasted more like shirley's temple but in blue, mine tasted more like some kinda sweet but both were nice ! :D

the movie was not bad la.. some say it was good, but i thought the first few were better, 1/2 blood prince was easier to comprehend and its much funnier ! yup, then we went home after that ! I did a good deed too ! i picked up a wallet on the way out of the cinema and saw the IC in the wallet, returned it to the owner ! :) too bad there was only 4 bucks left in the wallet. haha

SAT- slacked at home the whole day, did some work. sang some kara ok, used the comp. then dinner with family at vivo superdog ! shopped around with mummy. eyed on some clothes which we were going back to get tmr cus they were closing and mumy eyed on some too but no time. all the shops were closed alrd including adidas but some ppl were still shopping inside, and guess who? ITS LIVERPOOL's team ! only managed to see some but actually i also dont recognise them. but if it was torres ! omg i would have spotted him without fail ! I thought i saw rafa but bro says its not him, but i thought so. aiya.. who cares ! HAHA.

alright, just a few pics we took on fri. AFEW only.

2009-07-23T00:52:00.003+08:00

THE FAKE FRONT.

somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

i'm exhausted ! If the flu bug were to attack me at this very moment, i would just die without a battle.
Cant stop myself from thinking the worst and i cant stop myself from decieving myself. reality is just too hard to face, suck it up susu ! YOU CAN DO IT! :)

the only thing I'm looking forward to is friday evening, hope all goes well ^^ and then it would be my genting trip with my family, a time to relax, do some shopping and enjoy the weather.

-Doing things against you will ain't a very nice feeling huh !

2009-06-22T06:46:00.003+08:00

YAWN ! its the last week of the term holidays and I'll be spending it by a 5D4N trip to INDONESIA, BOGOR :) will be heading down to Jakarta for shopping and all too ! This time It would be my first time taking the plane without my parents. Just WanChuen and I, and I'll be coming back alone. NERVOUSSSSS ! haha..

Anw, this holidays I would say was quite okay, though I dont get to spend much time with my beloved sisters :( but its alright, we're SISTAX 184, forever DE NEHS ! hahahahaha

really cant remember much about what I did during the holidays, only the recent memories were going back to school for 2 mornings for gems project and math pbl, playing overnight mahjong and had mac breakfast with panda,adrian,benson,zoe,rusdi and eileen. many outings with baby which includes seoul garden ! thai express, movies ! wii ! slacking... friday night with the girls, a lil bit of l4d, slacking outside cine with entertainment from the bapok, bro's treated leen, chueny and I for supper at newton. overnight L4D with cousin roy, bro and chueny. last night was father's day dinner at thai express vivo before sending bro back to camp :)

Gonna get back the term test results as soon as school's starts. I'm not really looking forward to it, cus I can almost predict how it would be but there's pretty much nothing I could do haha !

yup, so thats briefly it.

POST TO BABY:
I'll be gone only for a short short 5Days ! Wouldn't ask you not to miss me, cause I know you'll. HEHE! and of course I want you too :P Hope you'll enjoy yourself with your new found companion MR.WII :D:D anw, B.F.T.M okay !

though its an old pic of us, Its still one of my fav !
I love you so so very much ! :) and I'm so so so gonna miss you too baby !

2009-06-02T02:59:00.004+08:00

I sat for the first paper of the week today. It sucked, i was darn careless and I hate it cus its not that you dont know how to do, its just that my eyes are bloody damn small. damn sad :(

But anyway, its only 5% so i shall stop nagging about it.
After the paper I acc ryan and jason awhile before ryan acc me to wait for my mom to pick me up :) THANKS LOVE ! :D

Homed and I was so lazy to study !
Dad left for korea on sat morning and will be coming home this sat too and we will be having a gathering ^^ yipppe !
AND AND HAPPY HAPPY 21ST BIRD DAY TO SHERMIES (29.05.09) hehehe!
hope all goes well for you in your future endeavours horxxxx ! :)

ohya! I so damn wanna get outta singapore even if it was for a few days, so girls! let me know if you'll want and can make 4D3N free hokay?! A relax trip to tregannu(malaysia) budget around 400 for hotel resort + to and fro coach ride I think ! :D:D CAN CAN?

P.T: I really don't know what to do, can't pretend its not happening yet i can't do much about it too.

2009-05-30T17:44:00.002+08:00

I'M SO STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
and I brought this stress upon myself !

ARGHHHHHHHHH,
I wanna be a nerd ! hahaha

2009-05-28T00:06:00.005+08:00

BEST VIEWED WITH MOZILLA FIREFOX !

continuing from sunday, just stayed home rotting the whole day ! then went out for dinner at jalan malu malu ! LOVE THE FOOD ! its damn good !

monday, school as usual. geomatics sucked cus its was hot like mad ! its as though the sun was right above my head, abit exaggerating lah. but seriously, OMG ! had giddy spells after that cus it was seriously too hot. worse still, my grp did a lil mistake so we had to re-do on wednesday :(
anw, on a brighter note, sherms and I went to holland V to get a welcome home balloon for brother2 just like we did last year! frolick-ed and subwayed (eat fresh) ! :D cabbed home, daddy sponsered ! :D

tuesday, woke up early but not for school. TO THE AIRPORRRRRRRT ! yipped ! brother is coming home and i'm so excited ! cousin jeroy came to pick sherms and I up and we headed to the airport. blasting music in the car and I was so happy :D:D finally saw brother coming out yeahhh ! of cus i dint get the longer hug but.... oh well. met up with quan and we went to lunch at swenses 1for1. accompanied jeroy to pick up his passport the to funan to pick up his game.
sent brother and sherms home and the 3 of us went l4d-ing at RV. fun fun fun ! homed after that.

wednesday, schooled, homed. baby came over and we just chat and played cards ^^

tmr i will be attending bro's graduation ceremony ^^

HAPPY NOTE: CHUENY IS COMING BACK FOR GOOD! I'M LIKE HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY !
OKAY, THOUGH BROTHER1 IS HAPPIER. BUT WHATEVER! YEAHHHHHHH !

overdued pics from wednesday, friday some other time ^^
ANW, PICS ARE A LIL MESSED UP, PARDON ME !

while eileen was having her test and I was feeding the mosquitoes !

DOM THE N I G G A ! yo yo !

eileen absorbing as much as she can LAST MIN !

and while leen was absorbing !

they really look like twins !

my fringe needs trimming, actually TRIMMED !

cute only.

ronny's face like kena caught scandling ! LOL

while waiting for PP to study!

okay, thats all good night !

2009-05-24T12:21:00.003+08:00

friday was nights out with the girls. went over to peixian's crib with yuyu first before heading to chinatown for dinner then we took a cab down to cine =) slacked while waiting for our movie. ANGLES AND DEMONS ! ROCKKKKKKKKSSSS ! X10000000000000 omg. love the show !
its damn good. slacked outside cine awhile before heading home!

saturday! woke up at an unearthly hour of 7AM on a saturday ! omg, damn sad damn tired but no choice. had an appointment for physio therapy at tanglin shopping centre. my mom forced me to go cus my back hurts =( and if i were to be late they will still charge. My physio therapist name is BOON CHEW too ! HAHAHA. anw, physio was really good but painful when she massage becus it was really stiff and after that we went over to wheelock becus she recommended mummy to get me a pair of birkenstocks =) =) =) HAPPY TO THE MAX. took some time to choose which pair. yeahhh ! yup, went for lunch at chinatown after that before going to grandma's house. went home, took a nap before going to my relative's wake. yup, home and dinner after that.

sunday! sucked.

HAPPY 9TH MONTH BABY ! love you deep deep.

2009-05-22T00:09:00.007+08:00

okay past week was spent lying on the bed at home, but at least baby came over to spent some time with me despite the fact that i may pass the flu bug to him but anw i think he didnt, PHEW ! and luckily i was well and back on my feet just in time to be out with the girls on friday !

was out with my mom on fri, visit my grandma before heading to town dfs THANKS HC AND HER MOM =) then went to meet the rest of the girls with hc at cine. cant rem what we did alrd, i think we had dinner at koufu then bryan des their gang were there, so we just chilled and played l4d. FUN! then gen ron and I went home while the rest went drinking i think =)

sat was mummy's birthday !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY DEAREST ! though brothers weren't able to celebrate with you this year cus one was overseas and the other in army but you had an extra daughter shermies hahah ! so we went for dinner at fish&co at great world city. yummy food! we ordered quite alot but managed to finish.

monday school as usual then went to dfs to collect mummy's stuff, had pastamania at fep with shermies then headed home early =)

tuesday baby sent me home after school =)

wednesday, did project work after school though i left first :P headed over to eileen's house first, help OPF wrapped mails then slacked and blogshopped a lil. i fell into a deep fufilling slp while eileen went to shower and get ready! we were just 10 mins late to sent out the mails so we took a cab down to sentosa tourism academy where leen was studying for the sem. she had to sit for a test from 6-7 so i waited for her. and while waiting I was the dinner of a whole bunch of irritating fatty juicy mosquitoes ! ARGH BUGGERS! they just kept biting me like FOC even through my leggings ! how smart. so i had to pull my leggings over my feet and tuck them under my bag. hahahaha, finally ! eileen was out so we waited for joeyho then took the tram back to vivo. bused to cine met up with the rest of the girls, mac and l4d again! FUN! then i went home straight at 1200! cinderella=) *pictures soon when i get them!

thurday, school from 2-5 then headed down to fep with baby ! went to ave my haircut ! all the dead ends, spilt ends dry ends, whatever ends of my hair GONE ! yeah~~ but its pretty short now. dont care la, i quite like it cus it will be easier to wash, blow and straighten every morning ! =) then baby sent me to my grandma's place and he went home. sat awhile then went home too !
FRIDAY - which is tmr. girls night out as usual. JIEJIE peixian will be BRINGING us out for dinner. WOW! i'm looking forward as usual =) LOVE LOVE <3

PS: I wonder why, I wonder how ! Is it me? Is it not? Words that I cant describe, fear that I cannot hide. I love you still no matter what. So please don't chuck me aside =) YOU! yes YOU !

2009-05-14T23:26:00.002+08:00

yet another day spent lying in bed. sleeping through the day.

thought i would be able to go school today but who knows i woke up feeling worse than ever !
my fever was back and my temp was reading 39.3 ! WTH ?! medicine doesnt work. crap.

so i quickly text baby asking him not to come over but that stubborn ass just wouldnt listen.
so he reached around 10 and kept me accompanied till around 1 plus before he left for school.
if you fall ill, don't blame me okay !

so i just spent the entire day sleeping lying in bed doing nothing. grandma was so sweet to but me some food and bird's nest and made barley for me but i just couldnt taste any of the these goodness :(

i'm so sad ! all my gfs are out the whole day shopping and poor me is stuck at home feeling like crap :( argh. sucks !

alright, hope i'll be better tmr !

2009-05-14T01:28:00.003+08:00

Din't go to school today and lucky i din't.
Woke up in the morning not feeling very well, took my temp and it read 36.9, hmmm ok. no fever.
but i still dont feel good so i went back to slp, woke up again around 8 plus and my temp read 37 +
slept again and woke up a few times, each time my temp, was increasing. Till around 2.30 my temp was reading 39.2, ok so i reluctantly went down to see the doctor. again, loads of medicine and 3 days of MC. -.- i feel like crap, hate being sick.

=( throat hurts. head hurts. nose sucks. body aches. ARGH ! worse still, i coughed and spit out some phlegm and it had traces of blood... wooo~ haha.

okay, at least i feel much better now compared to this morning and ytd.

alright, see how i feel tmr first then see if i wanna go to school :D

drink loads of water everybody, being sick is not good.
TAKE CARE !

2009-05-12T22:44:00.002+08:00

was so so reluctant to go to school this morning. plucked myself outta bed prepared and cabbed to school with sherms. i was so sleepy last night that i was sleeping while sherms was doing my nails ! HAHA. thanks love !
YEAHHHH ! mummy gave me mullah to buy the tw spree items. i am a happy girl ! cant wait for the items to arrive and i will be a happier happier girl !

anw, i couldnt really pay attention in class today cus i was having a bad cold :( felt so shitty and i feel so bad cus i was supposed to acc baby to buy his boots at queensway but end up he had to sent me home straight after school and acc me till i fell asleep :(
baby left and he went to buy his boots alone :( :( sorry darling ! i'll make it up to you alright :D

yup, woke up around 8 plus but still feeling like crap. dad gave me medicine, i showered and now here am i in front of the screen blogging. going to slp soon ! :D

LOVE RYAN ! <3

2009-05-11T23:56:00.013+08:00

Its monday again and i'm feeling the monday blueeeessss again as usual :(
parents were off for today so mummy sent me to school, an extra 1/2 hr slp !

school was boring esp the first lesson, ewww! the girls except gloria and pw rushed down to JP in search of hasan's present. finally got one and we rushed back again for lunch before geomatics.
DEREK CHAN is sucha B*T*H ! ivan called to ask if we still had to go for geo prac as it was raining heavily, he said come cause there's still lecture. bloody hell! when we reached he said we can go back alrd. ass if not i had a 4 hour break and i could have gone home to rest cus my tummy wasnt feeling good as usual :( anw, just slacked around the lab with classmates, played UNO, discussed project too. yup, went for last lesson and parents came to pick sherms and I up. headed to grandma's house then they dropped us at vivo. sherms and i went to buy some stuff to prepare fondue for my mom as a mothers' day present :D
took a cab home and started preparing! mummy was surprised and was very touch. we enjoyed and my parents were so cute! they started cam whoring taking damn sweet photos that even ryan and I dont :( jealous !

anw, i'm not lazy today and i think i shall not be and start posting pics too !

Anw pics are not so nice cus theres no editing and i used the blogger uploader haha !
okay, its in a mess but whatever !

DADDY AND MUMMY !
its a mothers day celebration but all pics are mummy and daddy cus without daddy theres no mothers day for mummy too, make sense? yea.. and sherms forbid me to post her pics cus she say not nice. well, i look horrible too, so yea too bad !

enjoy my parents sweetness !

awwww.

managed to catch a tiny bit of michelle and shaun's wedding !
many words of which, SWEET and ENVIOUS !
lucky couple to have each other, I WANT TO GET MARRIED TOO !
opps, jkjk :D:D

2009-05-10T01:31:00.003+08:00

mondays were spent with sherms germs as usual :D had crystal jade as usual after school then walked around and home !

tuesdays, wednesdays and thursdays were spent with baby ! :D:D
baby send me home on tuesday cus i was really tired and having a headache from the stupid hot weather ! :) went to clementi with jason adi and yuyu as they needed to get stuff, went over to ryan's place to slack before meeting my parents at the aldephi in the night ^^ thursday i had no lesson in the morning this week and for tpt engr we had an excursion to LTA was quite fun !
felt like there was no school then headed downtown with ryan :D bad start in town! but it was okay after awhile ! baby had his hair cut short then we roamed around taka before i went home :)

long long day on friday! gems was errrrr. okay. watched video clips which some parts was really gross, first time watching the embryo transforming into a baby through the 9 mths and it wasnt any ordinary clip, it was really really detail that they even showed the baby coming out from the female's private part! hmmmm... luckily i dint had a full meal before that ! phew.
out with the girls but yuyu accompanied me to get my mom a present from taka before that. just slacked around cine the whole night... was sian but time spent with girls = HAPPY happy !

Love the girls so so much ! yeahhh ! Ps: feeling like being a lil mean now, but nah ! haha i'm nice!

anw, i'm super not happy i scored so low for ryan's IQ quiz. haha sounds stupid i know, but grrr stupid quiz irritating ryan! questions all so diffcult ! and i swear he said he wants a tattoo on his leg before ! he did and you know what?! the option leg wasnt even there ! HAHAHA! :/ wanna dont friend ryan ! haha but impossible cus ryan is my boyfriend ! shouldnt have forced ryan to create a quiz haha. i'm just being childish and whiny. haha just leave me alone.

okay, ryan fell asleep before me and so early! i'm not used to it so i'm off to bed now :)

goodnight peeps!

PS: i'm still upset about everything about the quiz. grr!

2009-05-03T22:21:00.003+08:00

woke up slightly later today becus i slept slightly later the previous night..
washed up and went giant vivo with daddy, bought some ingredients for lunch and dinner :)

went to ntuc to get a lil more ingredients then back home to prepare !
COOKED CREAM OF MUSHROOM ! which was a success ! its yummy yummy licious !
shall cook for baby and the girls too someday, oyah and when both bros are back :D

went up to prepare dinner after that, prepared tom yum hot pot. its simple and yummy !
just throw whatever ingredients you like boil boil and its ready to go :) quick and easy to prepare.

aunt uncle and cousin melvyck came and he tried my mushroom soupie, he said its superb and can be compared to the ones outside ! OMGx. heheh ! eh i never brag hor ! i'm not like sharon. opppppssssie jk jk ! waited for mummy to return then went up for dinner :)

damn good :D

yup.. gonna bathe soon!
back to school tmr, so siannnnn :( GRR !

2009-05-02T17:41:00.002+08:00

have been heading out the whole week returning in the night even though there was school the next day, TSK TSK bad girl. mummy wasnt very happy and neither was daddy :(

okay, gotta be a good girl and stay home more often, at the same time i can save money too :D

anyway... monday was the usual. out with shermies after school and i called her during lesson telling her i had cravings for FISH&Co. woohooo ! just because i got my allowance. anw, we headed to great world city for f&c then. walked around before heading home :)

Tuesday, after school was supposed to have dinner with baby's family but his parents couldnt make it last min. But i still went over to his place and we had dinner with his sister :)
Homed afetr that and cousin came over to talk to me and mother about some products which we bought in the end :)

Wednesday, we ended school early. yuyu had the car and so we went town for X-MEN ! woohoo ! nice show ^^ accompanied them for some food at fareast before they left and met up with some of the girls. decided to go to ZEE-ONN (zion, happy bryan? ) for dinner. ate and walked around gwc before yuyu sent us home. but SHARON CHEONG SIEW YING just had to call while sending gen home so we made a turn to her house but becus my cousin was coming over i had to alight at tiong and spent freaking 6BUCKS on an inocent cab ride home. HAHAHA ! sharon acid wash tee CHEAPER BY $6 hor !! LOL

Thursday, skipped morning lecture becus i was having a lousy stomach. so i went to school at 2 for an hour lecture before yuyu sped down to JE to catch ntss final bb match. though we came in 2nd it was still very well played ^^ YEAH ! saw some teachers which made me v happy and i miss ntss so much ! anw, sped down to science centre again for some omni theatre THE ALPS show with shcool. was supposed to go down to boonlay with baby but he psed me :( sobs !
so i went to meet eileen and gen in town, went over wisa to get some stuff before playing l4d with bryan & co, sharon and px. homed after that.

Friday, yuyu called me early morning asking if i was game for lunch. i agreed and she came to pick me. went to hbf for food. wanted to eat my kai si hor fan but yuyu being very yuyu who is very NOOB in agaration ordered a mountain of indian rojak. and when the guy served, i opened my eyes so big that my eyes nearly became permantly BIG, not that its not big now la =x
so no more kai si hor fan lor :( went over vivo, saw andre and adrian at apple corner. met up with buyer. trimmed my brows at make up store. then went to pick sharon up. headed to chomp chomp for frolicks and met up with sharon's buyer. was nearby yuyu's place so went over to kill time and see dearest TRACYYYYY girl ! headed to cine to meet the rest of the girls. yuyu accidently strached someone's car but it wasn't her fault becus the car wasnt supposed to park there. had dinner there before heading to parklane for l4d then to newton for supper. homed after that :)

pics would be up if i'm not lazy ! :D

we just sand the rough patch smooth, lets stay that way alright?
LOVE YOU !

2009-05-01T00:59:00.003+08:00

ARGH. SUCKS !

i hate that feeling !
voices says the other, but should i listen?
its my choice, i trust myself.
i'm staying strong..

so many feelings bottling in me. who can i tell? who can i pour out to?
who would know/understand how i feel? how can i put it into exact words even if there was that someone?

i want a machine, a machine that can connect to my brain and heart and scribbles everything a 100% accurately onto a paper. someone invent that pls.

Alright, an emo post i'm sorry, unlike me but i really can't help it.

2009-04-23T21:12:00.002+08:00

BACK TO BASICS !
haha, i mean back to school, basics as in cus i love wearing basics to school :D

anw, first few days in school was so-so lor.. monday after school met up with shermies and we headed to town for some shopping ^^ bought some stuff before having dinner at soup spoon !
yummy ! love love mushroom soupie :P homed and did some girly stuff then around 1 plus wc came over and we just chat the whole night, haha slept at 5am !

shared a cab to school with wc, sent wc off to the airport in the evening :)

wednesday, ended early. went to tiong with baby got my stationaries then ta-paoed food back to my place. caught role models dvd. slept awhile before heading to hbf with thr girls in the evening. had a lil sake sushi the went up to vivo top deck, chat shill and all :D
shared a cab home with the girls.

thursday. BAD DAY ! haha, i dint see the timetable carefully and no one told me that the math lesson was alternate weeks, so this week is yuyu's class !! ARGH so i went to school at 11 am and i took cab somemore ! oh my ! so i wanted to go over to eileen's house. bused to tiong then wanted to buy food for both of us but her mom bought alrd and she's sick so dropped the idea and took a cab home, picked my maid and grandmother on the way from central :) ate at home then bused back to school again around 2. went to my grandma's place around 4 :)

yeahh ! tmr will be baby's and mine 8th month together !
Loving you baby !
xoxo

2009-04-17T01:11:00.002+08:00

phew ! a week past so fast, 3 more days and sch reopens! i'm gonna be in year 2, so quick.
ekkks, i'm scared ! HAHA.

anw, i'm pretty lazy to upload photos and all, so a quick update on what i've been up to lately.
weekends was the flea market ! which was my first time as a stall vendor ! was pretty fun, all the bargianings and seeing all the clothes go and money rolling in, hehe ! felt good ! ryan was sucha a sweetie to come down all the way just to see me, :D:D love you !
sat had to leave early cus it was grandparents' bd dinner at raffles hotel buffet, food not bad lar.

monday, was out lunch with 2nd bro, wc, sherms and nai nai. treated nai nai to HE SE HUI ! which was a pretty cool place to dine in. their dim sum was good and unique. prices was damn reasonable too cus if you eat before 5pm, there's a 30% off all dimsums :) kor sherms and nai nai went home first while I went over to wc's place to pack some clothes then off to JP to decorate a cake for my bro. walked areound had supper then cabbed home. surprised my bro with the farewell cake, and he was so touched :D

tuesday, woke up, mom has the car but junus drove all of us to the airport ^^ sent kor off :( he's going to dubai to work for the same company he had his attachment last year, gone for 1 1/2 months :( i'm so lonely. mum treated all of us to crystal jade dim sum again ^^ yumm ! after that, junus dropped honnie, sherms wc and i at cine, caught a movie and we took neoprints !
OH MY GOD. damn old school, but it was fun haha ! hoons and sherms left while wc and i carried on shopping. bought a new bag for school and a high waisted shorts from topshop. poof ! 120 bucks gone ! just within a day, i spent about $160 + including my faceshop products.

wednesday ! was out with baby ! i woke up late opps. met up at ps around 3, caught the movie knowing. slacked in between, arcade as usual ! then had dinner at mahatthan fish market :) then arcade awhile more before baby sent me home :D sucha simple and sweet day spent well ! hehe

thursday- today ! sherms and hoonie came over to my place before heading to vivo to walk around. then off to meet the girls at cine around 8. caought 17 again at 930, slacked around before sharing a cab with the girls :D

thats all i can remember, may post some pics when i'm not feeling lazy !

2009-04-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

YIPPE ! today is a happy happy day !
Ryan baby managed to wake up on time and he came over to my place in the morning :)
slept awhile longer and woke up aound 2 :) watched some dvds slacked and I went to shower.
Headed down to vivo, checked out the phones and baby said the samsung one was nicer.
Had a little carls junior then went down to candy empire ! wooo, my candy land haha.
baby bought me the kinder surprise egg, the old school one which i was hunting high and low for it, don't really like the new kinder surprise :( he got one simpsons design too, haha small boy.

bought daddy's orange juice from giant then went over to the taxi stand where dad and mom picked me up, HEADED TO COM CENTRE ! woohoo, finally and it was sort of a last min decision cus i told mom i know what phone i want alrd and they ended work early too ^^

mom say the samsung one nicer compared to the LG secret, i was deciding between this 2 phones. So, i upgraded my plan to the $48.15 a month and now i have unlimited smses and 300 mins outgoing. WOO ! love ! yeahhh, susu has a new phone and she loves it so god damn much !
hehe, went home a happy girl :)

The day i got my Samsung Ultra Touch

THANK YOU MUMMY AND DADDY ! LOVE YOU ! LOVE MY NEW PHONE !
i promise to study hard :)

Love you too baby !

2009-04-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

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2009-04-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hi ladies! Onepointfives has updated with Collection #3 after a short break.
This time round, expect Zipper V Neck Tee, Zipper Splash Tank and Kimono Top!

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2009-04-05T06:06:00.003+08:00

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2009-04-02T00:07:00.005+08:00

Just some overdue pics from the bowling last saturday with the girls ^^ bad game :(
Anw, met the girls at outram around 2 the head to kallang. took the shuttle bus to the kallang leisure park for some iceskating !
it was super fun ! the moment i got into the rink, i just went off skating, felt so free ! the cold wind blowing against you, so carefree :) hope all the girls would be there for the next iceskate date ! and i wanna go with ryan too ! hehehe...
sharon was the first to fall, hahaha ! then it was me cus eileen and i were skating all the way i was crossing my legs and she suddenly pulled me HAHA ! back i went, pom onto the fall LOL !!

after that we went to the central awhile before parting with the girls, yuyu hc and i went to chinatown to check some prices for the trip ^^ so excited ! pics would be up soon when i get them from eileen :)

Thats all for today, anw guys, do consider the camera alright ! post about my life will be posted below the advertisement as it would be up for quite some time ^^

2009-03-30T03:25:00.004+08:00

woke up around noon today, still feeling very lethargic :(
just lazed around before going to prepare, went up for lunch came back down and watched a dvd with my dad while waiting for my eldest bro to come home. FINALLY ! back...
wc took a cab down and we set off for the airport, send wc (eldest bro's) gf in and we left for ahma's place which is all the way back to somewhere near my area.
sat for while before heading opp for dinner at botak jones, then back all the way to the airport to send my bro to brunei, army training.

then its all the way back home, feeling so tired even when i dint do much, haha i'm sucha pig.

thats all for today,
looking forward to opening my eyes in the morning and seeing ryan infront of me, =P

yipppe! nights !

2009-03-29T01:38:00.001+08:00

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2009-03-28T15:08:00.003+08:00

Been going out everyday of this week :)

MONDAY - went over to ryan's place, slacked around then we went over to ntuc and bought some groceries. cooked ourselves a splendid meal :) watch dvd while we ate then continued slacking, homed around 10pm :D

TUESDAY - ryan came over, slacked and watched dvds again :) then he left around evening while i prepared and met the girls at cine for movie, paul bart mall cop was the show, it was ok-ok funny..
then we play L4D again :D fun fun fun ! slacked at heeren mac then shared a cab home with hc and eileen :D

WEDNESDAY - PINIC with the girls ! morning yuyu called to say her mom ps her, she was supposed to help yuyu make her potato salad haha ! so she drove down picked me up and we went ntuc. bought all the stuff we needed and back to my place. made quite a mess and thank god my maid was so nice to help me clean up cus we were super late :D went down to eileen's place to pick all of them up before heading to botanic gardens, was drizzling by then but luckily yuyu's car had 2 huge umbrellas. walked around to find a spot and we settled for one under a huge pavilion, ate what we made. eileen and hc made sushi tgt, yuyu made potato salad, i made apple crumble and sandwiches, dawn's MOM fried bee hoon, px made cookies and sharon BOUGHT drinks and chips ! LAZYYYYYYYYY! slacked and chill took photos then we packed up and left, went to isetan as px wanted to pass stuff to her friend then we decided to head down to parklane for L4D again ! hahaha... played played then yuyu sent us home after that, got stopped by police roadblock, yuyu's VIRGIN roadblock, the policeman said : "overloading ar girls!" but they were all very nice, just take down the IC and we were allowed to go but dawn and i had to walk home haha ! but we flaged a cab, dawn dropped me before heading home.

YUYU GREW AN UMBRELLA ON HER HEAD, LOL !

so sweet ! :)

THURSDAY - SPORTS DAY for the girls ! yuyu came to pick me up and we headed to temasek club for some badminton action ! rented the court from 2-4 and we played throughout, doubles and single matches. after that eileen, serene and i went for a swim. showered then we headed to havelock road for bat kut teh, yummy ! early dinner at 6 ahaha, then went to pick sharon and we headed to chinatown head quarters for L4D AGAIN ! damn fun ! LOL... then we all went to tiong's mac fro ice cream, mummy came to pick me up :D

px is a noob ! haha she play abit only then rest throughout, LOL and when she's on court, most of the times she dint even get to hit the shuttle cock ! HAHAHA

jumpshots ! HAHA

YUYU LOOKS CUTE IN THIS 2 PHOTOS ! HAHA

my favourite buy ! a 2 bucks cotton on bag ! :D

FRIDAY - woke up late afternoon, used laptop before dozing back to slp. packed my room a lil then prepared and had dinner. mummy and I then took a bus to raffles hotel, mummy had 2 tix to some play "don't forget to remember me" we were 20 mins late so we had to sit upstairs. BORING !!! the show was damn boring and the cast's acting were so-so. ahaha, so during the interval we left. went there for 20 mins only. so we went to raffles city for soup spoon :D bought 2 dozens of J.co donuts too ! thenw e walked around metro and i bought some undergarments :D:D bus home around 11 :D

TODAY (sat) - woke up in the afternoon, slacked awhile then met the girls at mt.faber safra for bowling. dont know what on earth were the girls thinking man ! all of our arms were aching like hell due to the badminton but we still play bowling ! ok, but whatever the case, i still joined them. HAHA, played like shit, was off form, couldnt even hit a 100. LOL ! but it was fun still. then my parents picked me up and we headed to the cathay for dinner at the astons :) had to queue and food took so long to come. boooo :'( homed after that ! :D:D

thats all for my week ! i'm tired...
i'm gonna be so lonely at home and in the nights ! eldest bro got into artillery so he will be going to Brunei for training this sunday, 2nd bro will be going to Dubai again to work for the company where he had his attachment there last yr. good pay and good experience for him ^^
haissss... lonely dolly me ! :'( haha...

2009-03-21T18:11:00.003+08:00

A day gone by so quickly.. din't get to sleep till sunrise. kept tossing and turning in bed, couldn't sleep even though i was so so tired.

we are like an elastic balloon, each time there's a hole, we try to save it by mending over and over again. but as time goes by? eventually it will still deflate and would never return to the original shape again.

I don't want that no! I will stand strong, treat me like a door mat. step on me as you wish but no matter how torn and tattered I am, i will still be there.

Loving you,
an easy task turn so hard.

2009-03-21T03:10:00.002+08:00

6 Cycle Mind - Upside Down

I've been spending some time, thinking I'd be alright
Don't know if I could really make it tonight
Lie awake in the dark, come down then I start
Thinking about you is almost breaking my heart
I don't know where I went wrong, or what's going on
Baby, I feel like our love's lost tonight
Should I stay, should I go? Well, I really don't know
Lately I've been missing you so

Baby, you don't understand our love lies lost
But you're still holding my hand
Oh and then you walk away
Just tonight, I want you to stay

You're turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down
You're turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down

Everytime I hurt you, well it's hurting me too
Don't know if I could really stay here tonight
Tired of thinking of you, I never think that you do
Tell me what am I supposed to do
Well, I just wanted to say that I need you today
Tell me it's all gonna work out alright
I don't know where I should I start
But with all of my heart
Baby let me be your lover tonight

Baby, you don't understand our love lies lost
But you're still holding my hand
Oh and then you walk away
Just tonight, I want you to stay

You're turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down
You're turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down

Oh you know, you turn me upside down
You know, you turn me upside down

You're turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down
You're turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down

2009-03-20T17:24:00.005+08:00

Gonna combine 2 birthday post together, so there will be loads of pictures :D
first was yuyu's bd which was on the 12 of march !
on the 11th i met up with dawn and serene at holland to get some party stuff and her balloon :)
then i cabbed over to yuyu's place.. blah blah she then found out we were crashing her family dinner, haha i cant lie =x anw, food was damn damn damn good ! yummy !
we then went back to her place, slack awhile pretend to decide where to go, but actually serene dawn and lynetter were alrd at the hangout hotel preparing her surprise. so we decided to go to the old school timbre, yuyu was damn reluctant cus she didnt want to, the moment she stepped out of the car we blindfolded her and blast music into her ipod. hahaha we then TRIED to lead her to the hotel which we dont know where it is, yuyu kept fidgeting and kept pinching me when i held her hand, IRRITATING !hahaha, in the end we took a cab, HAHA. when we reached, we split 2 by 2 and went up, when the clock striked 12, we were outside the room, opened the door and POOF SURPRISE !!!! hahaa... overall i said the plan went very well :D
we ate the cake, chat and played cards the whole night, somethings happened in between but damn lazy to say. haha... so the next morning we all woke up to prepare :)
was damn early la.. but it was fun seeing all the girls preparing together :) yuyu drove, so again all 8 of us squeezed into the car and went to paradiz centre to have mac breakfast! and after breakfast they decided to come over to my place for k session. i slept in between then around 5 we set off to the cathay. met up with the guys had dinner at the astons. food was great ! big portions at a reasonable price ! after dinner we played lan at cine, l4d :D:D after that we went home. was damn tired but i had great fun ! CHEEEERRRRS ! i'm a damn good planner !

while she was bathing, we stole her clothes, bolster and everything she needed ^^

YUYU WAS CRYING ! hahahahaha dont care she was !
just kidding =P

we bought her the fred perry wallet she wanted too :D

my harry potter specs D:

wa nice ! damn cute !

TRUE PIG !

nette baked damn yummy cookies for yuyu !

now, thats for yuyu's birthday :D:D hope you enjoyed, i know you did ! :)

SHARON CHEONG's 18th :D:D
love you sister ! hope you will be always happy alright, dont think so much, we are always here for you no matter how irritating and thick skinned you are ! HAHAHA.
LOVE YOU !

so for sharon's bd, the girls met up at vivo, got some art and craft stuff from daiso then head down to my place and we each made a card for her, nice simple and sweeeet ! serene got a flower for her and we god a balloon too ! :D:D
then we cabbed down to newton circus and had zhi char great food once again !
after dinner, we went clubbing :)
great night ! never had so much fun or gotten so high for a long long time ! YEAHHH !
homed around 5 plus, slept till the next afternoon !

so damn true !! H and O i guess one ! hahaha

my card ! damn nice ! thanks thanks i know :)

now, thats all for sharon's bd :D
hope you had fun too ! dont think about the unhappy things alright, love you !
be strong !

2009-03-13T00:59:00.003+08:00

hey everyone ! its another of my dearest sister's birthday !
and we have 85% successfully planned a surprise for her :D

i'll update all in details probably after the IT show which i'm working for epicentre as usual the next 3 days ! you could come look for me if you want to get anything!

anw, i'm going to be really tired :(

soooo... hold on for yuyu's birthday post !
alright, I just came home and would be turning in soon, gotta gather all my energy for tmr's battle !

HOTTIE HOTTIE 19th BIRTHDAY
my dearest TAN YULIN !
though you are an ass, i still love you, cus you're one damn fun caring ass sister :D
hahaha..
you know i love you,
xoxo,
Sulin

2009-03-10T17:04:00.005+08:00

before you guys start reading, pls do check out this 3 websites !
myantiquecloset.livejournal.com 1st collection by shermaine and I.
onepointfivess.blogspot.com 1st collection by eileen and peixian.
whatisdope.blogspot.com 3rd collection by sharon.

been going out quite often this holidays, the past holidays were just work work work, money come, money out. so it was pretty boring...

i can't really remember what i did for the past week except for eileen's birthday.. friday i din't meet up with the clique becus i was tired and broke. HAHAHA

SATURDAY, met up with ryan. went to plaza sing, walked and combed the whole shopping mall and we dint do anything.. met up with a few of his friends too :D had lunch at burger king then decided to catch a movie, but there weren't any suitable timings or seats left sooooo we sat down somewhere and thought of BOWLING ! yea bowling.. so we asked his friends along but they backed out last min. so ryan and i made our way down to safra@mtfaber. was quite on form :D WON WON WON ryan twice ! we played only 2 games. hahaha not bad eh? average score of 129.. so ryan had to pay cus he lost, but i was just kidding, i paid half in the end. HAHA. then we walked home from there.

SUNDAY, woke up and waited anxiously for the new tele to arrived. stupid delivery man was such an arrogant backside, he was very rude and impatient. when my dad was asking a question, we just cut my dad off without listening to the full question. offered him coke and he said dont want, i dont drink cold drinks damn rudely, omg ! feeling like throwing him into the box and seal him up ! hahaha then i showered and we went to my grandma's house then went to view furniture. came home, had dinner then sent my brother back to camp then dropped by imm. we kinda eyed on one sofa and would probably be getting it :D

MANDAY, WOKE UP SUPER EARLY ! woke up at 630, met eileen at tiong at 8 and we trained to yck, took cab to apple centre for a training for the it fair. kinda no use, cus whatever he said was pretty redundant cus i alrd knew. HAHA i'm a smart alec ! kidding but really, i knew those alrd, so the whole bunch of epi peeps which are eileen, yuyu, anthony, hc and seetho were talking and laughing non stop. haha TILL........ johnson came. he's out big boss, then all silent and pretend to listen. finally it ended, took a cab to fep. had lunch, then trimmed our fringe and i had my nails done. walked around then went to wisma to get my sandals. bused over to ps and played some arcade, FUN ! had dinner at xin wang then we walked over to paradiz centre and played lan ! left4dead and CS, uber fun ! cabbed home withd dawn. pics will be uploaded when i get them from eileen. her comp crashed ! BABOOMMM ! hahaha

If pictures looks big, pls use mozilla firefox to view ! :D

Anthony the big bully !

we were too bored ! so i started drawing

pretending to listen !

eileen's master piece ! HAHA

thats all,
toodles !

2009-03-07T00:41:00.011+08:00

It was my dearest dearest sister's 18th BD 2 on wednesday, 4th march :)
it was her big day :D and luckily this time eileen planned everything well so there wont be any stopping somewhere to decide what to do. and it was VERY FUN !
alright, so the night before i stayed up all night to make something for her and then i was supposed to meet hc and yuyu at 2 to surprise her with a cake, up instead i woke up at 2 :(
so i rushed to prepare, met her then we sung K, eileen's treat ! YEAHHH ! thanks :D

after K, we walked over to maxwell market to have cheap dinner as we would be prawning later in the night and it would be quite ex. it was still quite early by the time we finished dinner so we walked over to headquaters i think to play CS again ! FUN SUPER DUPER FUN! HAHAHA..

trained down to bishan then took a bus to the prawining area, met SISTER (benson) in the bus, so glad to see him ! we slacked awhile before we got rods, i shared one with ryan :) w e dint manage to catch much though, no skill :( we let lot away with free baits though, haha ! then we bbq-ed the prawns and ate them ! YUMMY yum yum...

cabbed home around 630 am to avoid the extra charge... super tired. showered , ate breakfast then slept throughout....

*pictures starts from prawning to K session*

*din't upload all the pics, too many and i'm too lazy ! *

sharon's group caught super alot!

luciOus ACT CUTE !

nice sharon !

stupid ryan !

nice one serene !

its not lesbianie.. its SISTERS LOVE !

present bought by joeyho and yteck, SO PRETTY !

i HAND-SEWED a pencil case for eileen ok ! with zip and its the ONLY ONE on earth ! haha, eileen better treasure it hor !

why pencil case? cus i owed her one for very long alrd, so i last min decided to make her one instead :)

cheese cake made by hc, damn nice ! yummy :P

sooo... HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY EILEEN ! LOVE YOU !!

and thank you for always being there for me , wanna say so much, but the memories we had together give me 20 pages also cannot say finish. all the little tiny bits of memories and laughter, tears and anger... LOVE YOU SO MUCH ! maucks muack, this is for you...

Sulin loves Eileen